Thanks for love me the way you do. You just 13 and have been carrying me on your arms so many times. How do you do it? Do you know you are my anchor? God just send you to my life. You doesn`t know how grateful I am for that.
And you doesn`t know how sorry I am for have you to worry so much for me. I`m sorry Andy. I promise I will try harder. I don`t want you to feel like this for me again. I`m so happy to have you in my life. You fill my life with so much love, happiness, joy and all good a little bro like you can give, and you have give your self to me. I don`t know what would happened to me to this point if you wasn`t with me. I apologize for made you sad and hurt you without intention.
Thanks for be who you are.
Thanks for share your life with me.
You are a so beautiful kid.
Andy, I love you with my whole heart.
luc
Saturday, June 11, 2011
TODAY (by Andy)
Our parents came about noon today, to spend the weekend with us. Is so cool to see my parents. I have been talking lots with my dad and showing him around.
Uncle Lucas surprise us, Jessy is here. Is so awesome. He is so happy, we all are.
Is always lots to do around here, is been so busy getting fun. And Luc is kinda blind, because I have gain couple of pounds, but he doesn`t want to see it this way and is not what he is trying to suggest. He may need new contacts.
Luc is going through something since Rob pass and I want to people to believe in prayers, to please, ask God to help him with this wrath he got inside. He is getting treatment with a therapist. He get in rage for things that are so not him. He is not patient, and is being hurting people around him. Is not Luc. My brother is not like this. And for me, to be for him in the right way. Then, when something like this happened, he goes down for couple of days. I don`t want to see him like this. I think he can do better, but at the same time, I don`t know how deep have affect him, going for what he went through with Rob. Just sadness me, see him going through this.
We got something planing for fathers day, even for us, every day is fathers day.
Is been good to watch lots of Rob`s videos. More good than sad. We have to laugh lots with those two doing so funny things.
I guess is all for now.
Enjoy your vacation kids.
Hugs,
Andy
Uncle Lucas surprise us, Jessy is here. Is so awesome. He is so happy, we all are.
Is always lots to do around here, is been so busy getting fun. And Luc is kinda blind, because I have gain couple of pounds, but he doesn`t want to see it this way and is not what he is trying to suggest. He may need new contacts.
Luc is going through something since Rob pass and I want to people to believe in prayers, to please, ask God to help him with this wrath he got inside. He is getting treatment with a therapist. He get in rage for things that are so not him. He is not patient, and is being hurting people around him. Is not Luc. My brother is not like this. And for me, to be for him in the right way. Then, when something like this happened, he goes down for couple of days. I don`t want to see him like this. I think he can do better, but at the same time, I don`t know how deep have affect him, going for what he went through with Rob. Just sadness me, see him going through this.
We got something planing for fathers day, even for us, every day is fathers day.
Is been good to watch lots of Rob`s videos. More good than sad. We have to laugh lots with those two doing so funny things.
I guess is all for now.
Enjoy your vacation kids.
Hugs,
Andy
YES! I DID IT! (by Lucas)
Is almost 6:00AM here.
I finish to publish the posts and there are few things I still have to do, but all I want to be here, is here.
Jeff? Thanks! You`ll never know how much we apreciate this.
I went to bed and pass out sleep, but I felt that Andy wasn`t in bed. I then realize he was posting in the computer. I just don`t know, I went to seat to Ro`s grave, that is not far from the house, in our property. I`ve have been missing him so much, too many memories. I just start to talk to him, just want to talk to him. No, I`m not crazy. I just want to hug him, to see him, to laugh with him, to cry with him. I just miss him. And he was there. No again, I`m not crazy. I heard some body behind me, and I know it was Andy, I saw the flash light. But Andy just stop and I know he was seeing something. I told him, not to be afraid, he answer me that he wasn`t. Then I heard Andy say "your welcome, I love you for ever", I ask him what Ro told him, and he told me that Ro thank him for love me the way he does and told him that he loves him, that is why Andy answer the way I heard him. And that then, Ro just gone, that he was seating in the bench by my side and with his head on my shoulder, the way he always use to do, and that he was smiling. I got tears when talking to him, but more of joy than sadness, yes, I miss him, God knows how much, but is been changing the way I`ve been feeling though. I doesn`t have those desperate states I got before, and the depression is gone. But I just missing him. I didn`t feel him or see him the way Andy did though, but is ok. I`m happy. I know he is happy. Oh, he told Andy that we never will see him this way again, that we will see each other, in heaven, next time. I know I will, Andy too.
This kind of things are new for me. I do believe in an spiritual world, or dimension, whatever it is, but is for me pretty neat, to have experience what I have with Ro.
Oh Ro.........I want so much for you to be here with us.........I`m happy you are in no pain, but I just miss you....complicated.........I just miss you my love........yes, I loved you with my self.......later Ro.
I got too many things I want to say. Is been so awesome to be here. I can`t stop thanking God for it.
Well, Andy is the star in this movie tho. I`m even kinda thinking if he have a girl friend all ready. LOL. For real.
I`m just so happy for him. Every body is Andy, Andy this, Andy that, Andy come, is crazy! I love my little bro.
The other two, I don`t know, but they got a gang of like 15 others, the same age range, and they have the house upside down. Well, our grannys are pretty tuff tho. LOL, they keep them in order. They are just happy, so free. I just feel for Steve, cus the language, but he is speaking spanish so much and quick! Is just so kool heard him speaking in spanish!. I love it!
I think is time for me to go for some tea my grany does, so good, with fresh home made butter and chess, and I`m just smell the bread. Andy and me will get worst than bro Cat. We will be two bellys with legs, if we don`t stop our mouth. Andy is like something without end. He is like, never full. Eat all day long and I don`t know where all that food goes, cus I don`t see him with an extra pound, well, he!, I can say where is that the food goes, cus is the only thing in his body, I see growing. When he read this, I will have to hide. LOL!
Kids? I wish you all that you make it good in school and enjoy your summer vacation.
Be careful out there. Don`t you allow NO BODY to abuse you in any way. Tell some body.
Parents? Hug your kids. kiss your kids. Listen to your kids. Tell them you are proud of them. And please, tell your kid "I love you".
Adults, don`t hurt kids.
Bullys, stop! You are kids too. What your think you all are doing? Stop!
Love you all.
Hugs,
luc
I finish to publish the posts and there are few things I still have to do, but all I want to be here, is here.
Jeff? Thanks! You`ll never know how much we apreciate this.
I went to bed and pass out sleep, but I felt that Andy wasn`t in bed. I then realize he was posting in the computer. I just don`t know, I went to seat to Ro`s grave, that is not far from the house, in our property. I`ve have been missing him so much, too many memories. I just start to talk to him, just want to talk to him. No, I`m not crazy. I just want to hug him, to see him, to laugh with him, to cry with him. I just miss him. And he was there. No again, I`m not crazy. I heard some body behind me, and I know it was Andy, I saw the flash light. But Andy just stop and I know he was seeing something. I told him, not to be afraid, he answer me that he wasn`t. Then I heard Andy say "your welcome, I love you for ever", I ask him what Ro told him, and he told me that Ro thank him for love me the way he does and told him that he loves him, that is why Andy answer the way I heard him. And that then, Ro just gone, that he was seating in the bench by my side and with his head on my shoulder, the way he always use to do, and that he was smiling. I got tears when talking to him, but more of joy than sadness, yes, I miss him, God knows how much, but is been changing the way I`ve been feeling though. I doesn`t have those desperate states I got before, and the depression is gone. But I just missing him. I didn`t feel him or see him the way Andy did though, but is ok. I`m happy. I know he is happy. Oh, he told Andy that we never will see him this way again, that we will see each other, in heaven, next time. I know I will, Andy too.
This kind of things are new for me. I do believe in an spiritual world, or dimension, whatever it is, but is for me pretty neat, to have experience what I have with Ro.
Oh Ro.........I want so much for you to be here with us.........I`m happy you are in no pain, but I just miss you....complicated.........I just miss you my love........yes, I loved you with my self.......later Ro.
I got too many things I want to say. Is been so awesome to be here. I can`t stop thanking God for it.
Well, Andy is the star in this movie tho. I`m even kinda thinking if he have a girl friend all ready. LOL. For real.
I`m just so happy for him. Every body is Andy, Andy this, Andy that, Andy come, is crazy! I love my little bro.
The other two, I don`t know, but they got a gang of like 15 others, the same age range, and they have the house upside down. Well, our grannys are pretty tuff tho. LOL, they keep them in order. They are just happy, so free. I just feel for Steve, cus the language, but he is speaking spanish so much and quick! Is just so kool heard him speaking in spanish!. I love it!
I think is time for me to go for some tea my grany does, so good, with fresh home made butter and chess, and I`m just smell the bread. Andy and me will get worst than bro Cat. We will be two bellys with legs, if we don`t stop our mouth. Andy is like something without end. He is like, never full. Eat all day long and I don`t know where all that food goes, cus I don`t see him with an extra pound, well, he!, I can say where is that the food goes, cus is the only thing in his body, I see growing. When he read this, I will have to hide. LOL!
Kids? I wish you all that you make it good in school and enjoy your summer vacation.
Be careful out there. Don`t you allow NO BODY to abuse you in any way. Tell some body.
Parents? Hug your kids. kiss your kids. Listen to your kids. Tell them you are proud of them. And please, tell your kid "I love you".
Adults, don`t hurt kids.
Bullys, stop! You are kids too. What your think you all are doing? Stop!
Love you all.
Hugs,
luc
Friday, June 10, 2011
HE DID IT! (by Andy)
Si esta va en espanol.
Luc lo hizo. No se como termino, pero lo hizo. El me sorprende y asombra con cosas que a veces, creo que le van a ser imposibles de terminar, pero siempre las termina.
Son las 4:57AM en Espana, luc se acosto no hace mucho, creo que como 45 minutos y solo me abrazo y lo senti llorar hasta que se durmio.
Tenemos muchos amigos durmiendo con nosotros. Ellos no decian nada, pero yo los veia chequeando a luc en la computadora y vi muchos de ellos con lagrimas en los ojos. Todos aman a luc. No solo a luc, nos amamos entre todos. Es la primera vez en my vida que estoy viviendo una experiencia tan linda. Tantos muchachos juntos y como familia. Con razon luc queria tanto venir y que especialmente, steve y yo, vinieramos. Esta venida a Espana, ha sido lo mejor que pudiera haber pasado a luc, y no solo a el, pero a nosotros, sus hermanos. Nunca desde que conozco a luc, lo he visto tan alegre. Yo se cuando el se rie con los ojos, con el alma. Si, el ha estado triste tambien, pero al mismo tiempo ha sido tan saludable para el, el poder hablar con los amigos en comun de Rob y el.
Es increible, siempre hay al menos 15 chicos y chicas aqui. Solo pasan y preguntan "estan listos?", y nos vamos. Luc y yo nisiquiera preguntamos a donde vamos, es siempre a un buen lugar. La naturaleza es tan linda aqui, tantos paisajes lindos, mi ojos no se cansan de mirar. Luc siempre me dice, "mira, en este lugar, Rob y yo hicimos esto o aquello", "ves esto?, Rob y yo veniamos a comer helados siempre", cada rincon del pueblo tiene recuerdos para el y sus amigos, acerca de cosas que hacian en comun con Rob. Y eso es lo que esta ayudando tanto a luc.
Al principio me senti un poco timido, pero luc se encargo de hacerme sentir bien, como siempre. Luc no dice que ama sin mostrarlo. Luc es luc, my lindo hermano grande. No le importa donde estemos, si siente el deseo de abrazarme o besarme, o solo ser como el es, el lo hace. Luc es transparente como el cristal. En mi hermano no hay malicia ni maldad para nadie. Yo solo se que lo amo mas cada dia.
Andres y Steve son otro mundo. Son una pandilla de diablillos de como 17 y todos andan en la misma edad. Pero siempre vienen buscando a luc y a mi tambien. Tenemos tiempo devocional con ellos y con todos los muchachos que esten en la casa. Luc no les dijo nada. Solo nos llamo a devocional como siempre y los chicos y chicas empezaron a acercarse. Luc les explico que hacemos y el porque, y que eran bienvenidos a tomar parte. Es increible como luc explica acerca de Dios. Empezaron a preguntar y ahora es un grupo de como 25, los que participan en el devocional y en la oracion antes de acostarnos. Los abuelos de luc no cabian de orgullo, oyendo a luc hablar y explicar acerca de Dios a los chicos y chicas presentes.
Yo estoy tan agradecido de Dios por como El muestra Su gracia y misericordia. El es perfecto y tiene su tiempo para hacer las cosas. El sabe lo bueno que es para nosotros estar aqui.
Tengo tantas cosas que quiero decir, pero sera para la proxima.
Los amo a todos.
Abrazos.
Andy
P.S. Just go to the google translate button on the right and translate. I was feeling to say sorry, but no, I`m not. Is been so good to write in spanish! LOL google translate guys. byyyyeeee!
Luc lo hizo. No se como termino, pero lo hizo. El me sorprende y asombra con cosas que a veces, creo que le van a ser imposibles de terminar, pero siempre las termina.
Son las 4:57AM en Espana, luc se acosto no hace mucho, creo que como 45 minutos y solo me abrazo y lo senti llorar hasta que se durmio.
Tenemos muchos amigos durmiendo con nosotros. Ellos no decian nada, pero yo los veia chequeando a luc en la computadora y vi muchos de ellos con lagrimas en los ojos. Todos aman a luc. No solo a luc, nos amamos entre todos. Es la primera vez en my vida que estoy viviendo una experiencia tan linda. Tantos muchachos juntos y como familia. Con razon luc queria tanto venir y que especialmente, steve y yo, vinieramos. Esta venida a Espana, ha sido lo mejor que pudiera haber pasado a luc, y no solo a el, pero a nosotros, sus hermanos. Nunca desde que conozco a luc, lo he visto tan alegre. Yo se cuando el se rie con los ojos, con el alma. Si, el ha estado triste tambien, pero al mismo tiempo ha sido tan saludable para el, el poder hablar con los amigos en comun de Rob y el.
Es increible, siempre hay al menos 15 chicos y chicas aqui. Solo pasan y preguntan "estan listos?", y nos vamos. Luc y yo nisiquiera preguntamos a donde vamos, es siempre a un buen lugar. La naturaleza es tan linda aqui, tantos paisajes lindos, mi ojos no se cansan de mirar. Luc siempre me dice, "mira, en este lugar, Rob y yo hicimos esto o aquello", "ves esto?, Rob y yo veniamos a comer helados siempre", cada rincon del pueblo tiene recuerdos para el y sus amigos, acerca de cosas que hacian en comun con Rob. Y eso es lo que esta ayudando tanto a luc.
Al principio me senti un poco timido, pero luc se encargo de hacerme sentir bien, como siempre. Luc no dice que ama sin mostrarlo. Luc es luc, my lindo hermano grande. No le importa donde estemos, si siente el deseo de abrazarme o besarme, o solo ser como el es, el lo hace. Luc es transparente como el cristal. En mi hermano no hay malicia ni maldad para nadie. Yo solo se que lo amo mas cada dia.
Andres y Steve son otro mundo. Son una pandilla de diablillos de como 17 y todos andan en la misma edad. Pero siempre vienen buscando a luc y a mi tambien. Tenemos tiempo devocional con ellos y con todos los muchachos que esten en la casa. Luc no les dijo nada. Solo nos llamo a devocional como siempre y los chicos y chicas empezaron a acercarse. Luc les explico que hacemos y el porque, y que eran bienvenidos a tomar parte. Es increible como luc explica acerca de Dios. Empezaron a preguntar y ahora es un grupo de como 25, los que participan en el devocional y en la oracion antes de acostarnos. Los abuelos de luc no cabian de orgullo, oyendo a luc hablar y explicar acerca de Dios a los chicos y chicas presentes.
Yo estoy tan agradecido de Dios por como El muestra Su gracia y misericordia. El es perfecto y tiene su tiempo para hacer las cosas. El sabe lo bueno que es para nosotros estar aqui.
Tengo tantas cosas que quiero decir, pero sera para la proxima.
Los amo a todos.
Abrazos.
Andy
P.S. Just go to the google translate button on the right and translate. I was feeling to say sorry, but no, I`m not. Is been so good to write in spanish! LOL google translate guys. byyyyeeee!
OH GOD! THANKS SO MUCH! ( by Andy)
This is so awesome!
Some body wich his name is Jeff, just send me an email with all the posts of the blog.
I`ll, we will never, be able to pay back.
This are the kind of things in life, that are priceless.
Oh Jeff, who ever you are, I thank you from the deepest of my heart.
Thanks Jeff.
Very much.
Oh God, I`m just crying, this is so awesome!
You doesn`t need to apologize for save all the posts. Actually, this was the intention of Rob, that people spread the message of the blog.
I`m speechless! God just answer our prayers.
Love you Jeff.
Andy
Vic said...
Thanks Jeff, you not only saved the day but also preserved the diary treasured so much by Luc and all his family. My guts were tied in knots when
it became known that the contents of his blog had been accidently deleted, and it was a million to one chance any one else had it saved, so great work mate, you are a awesome guy.
Vic said...
Hey Luc, 'aint it a beautiful day today, let's call it Saint Jeff Day, the patron saint of happiness.
We all love you kid.
Luc said...
Oh yes! LOL
Thanks Vic!
FOR EVERY BODY TO KNOW (by Andy)
Lucas Horneck is my big brother.
He is pure and I`m very protective about him, and jealous.
I ask people close to him and just don`t want no body to hurt his feelings because his emotional state.
I don`t have the intention to hurt no body feelings, but I have to say and ask.
I understand he is 15 yrs., old, and is suppose to be able to handle it, but because what I say before, I will be like this.
If you don`t understand this and get offended, so be it.
Hope you all understand.
Thanks.
Andy
BAD (by Andy)
Is bad.
Luc is devastated.
He went in a kind of panic attack or something like that, and uncle Robert have to shot him with a sedative.
He just start to cry and talk incoherences.
He feels so guilty and desperate.
He think, that he fails Rob.
He have been so emotional since Rob pass way. This is the last thing he needs now.
I don`t know if there is a way to recover the blog posts, but I will try to the last resource. Is just that we never thought, we were in the need to back up the blog posts. And I`m pretty sure Luc did, but we can`t find the saved posts.
Is that we just seat in front in front of the computer, and start the post. We never do drafts. We start to type from the heart.
Amar is so right. He told Luc to save the posts in word. Well, I hope we will be able to find the posts. And to use word to save them now on.
Luc was using Windows Live Writer, and besides, was saving the posts in a separate folder. He is blaming so bad on him self, for not to consult some body else before to take any action with the blog. His dad just told him to stop the blog for a while, until the issue with the AZOV guy, become clear. I think, he delete the blog here in blogger and word press, instead of make them private and later on, public again.
We have been through every single file in our computers and nothing.
Well, is done. I just hope to be able to find the posts.
There is part of Rob life. That is why Luc have taking it so personal.
Thanks Amar and Vic. I will try everything.
The kid Luc give his laptop pass by and the posts aren`t there.
Pray for us, please.
That we can find the posts.
Kids? Pray for us please.
Don`t allow no body to abuse you.
Hugs,
Andy
HELP! (by Lucas)
I need help!
I`m so down and frustrated.
I`m so sure I saved the blog posts, but I can`t find them.
I`ve been trying to contact Google, but they haven`t answer me.
I`ve been trying to contact the kid I give my old laptop, cus I think that maybe is there. He`ll be here today, but I`m not sure.
My dad order a software that is maybe able to recover from a hard drive, deleted files. Hope it works.
I feel so silly rit now cus this. How in the world I`ve been so disorganize to allow this to happen? UGH!
Don`t know what`s going on with me. I wasn`t like this.
I don`t know if any of you for any reason have save some posts from the blog, and would be so nice and please, let me know.
I`ll really appreciate it. For ever.
All this cus I was trying to make the blog private, till later; cus the issue with the AZOV guy, Mr. Steve.
And cus I want to posts pics of us, wich is absolutely not necessary.
Well, I think life is a journey, that you never stop learning.
I like this: "Success is not final, failure is not fatal; it is the courage to continue that counts".
I won`t give up, till I try every way to find the posts.
I think this will be all for now.
Kids? Here is some one that loves you all.
Hugs,
Luc
Vic said...
Hi Luc
This link may be of help www.computerhope.com/issues/ch000342.htm -
Understanding your problem in detail is the best way of solving it, and you may find the above link more useful than not. Do not save any new data until you run the recovery program first, because deleted data can be over written making recovery less likely. I hope whatever you do gets the job done, if not the internet is full of useful advice and there some clever buffs who can help you out.
Finger crossed.
Luc said...
Thanks lots Vic. I for sure will try it.
KEWL (by Andy)
Yes! Luc was able to save his school year and we`re on summer vacation all ready!
He didn`t get the "A`s" he wants to, but he save it. He`s pretty exited and all of us too.
His grand parents from both sides came by surprise, and to take us with them to Spain for two months. Is so cool.
We (Andres, Steve and me), finish last Thursday and luc last Friday. We heard him all exited when his teacher give him the report, and hide in the bedroom closet. He were looking for us and we set him up in the pool and throw him in it, but he did the same to us. LOL. Was pretty cool.
His dad allows him to do voice with the group from the chat room. Rob make him promise, that he will do it and share God with all of them. Luc was pretty emotional, grateful and happy, he was able to full fill that promise. Was an awesome time.
I don`t know when we will be living to Spain yet, but it will be in about a week. We all are exited with this trip, we`ve been waiting for this for a while. Luc was so anxious and nerves, he wants to pass all his exams, because if not, he will try to take summer classes to keep trying to save his school year, and doesn`t have to repeat; and if he have to take summer classes, the summer vacation in Spain have to be canceled. He told me that he didn`t want to mess our summer vacation. Well, he did it, he pass his exams. We told him though, that we didn`t want him to worry, because we just want to be with him, and it was ok with us, if he was able to pass or not. He has been going through lots this last 3 yrs. of his life, I`m so happy for him, and so proud too.
I think this is all for now.
Parents? Take care of your kids.
Kids? We wish you to pass all your exams and that you all have a nice summer vacation.
Don`t allow no body to abuse you. Tell some body.
BULLYS, STOP!!!! You are kids too! What are you doing?
Hugs,
Andy
P.S. Congrats big bro!!! You`re so awesome!!! We`re so proud of you!!! We love you looots!!!
From: Andres, Steve and me.
Vic said...
What comes across in your post is the incredible bond you all have for each other, whether it's friends or family the outcome is a pure mixture of joy most never have in their lifetime. I do believe the work you guys are doing is gradually closing that gap, and many have benefited by your unselfish aims to approach troubled kids wherever they are stranded. Hopefully the future of our young will become a priority for governments around the world, and the hand that protects must be firm and unwavering.
Congratulations Luc on achieving your grades, it's a good moment we all share with you. Enjoy your trip to Spain, you deserve it.
Thanks every one, the post was a sheer pleasure to read.
Luc said...
Thanks Vic!
THANKS VIC (by Andy)
I decide to make this comment from Vic, a post, because I like the way he address the parents and actually everything.
Vic said...
I am appalled by these reports and the abandonment of parental care these children have been left to fend for themselves, this is an open invitation for child abuse as seen in these reports. What makes it even far worse is that preteen kids have no conception what they are involved in, hence the bags of sweets and other treats to entrap their total unawareness of what lies ahead.
The real fight against paedophilia is a watchful eye that continually monitors your children's activity, a missing clue is a danger waiting to happen and another young life destroyed if you take your responsibilities lightly. Always let your children know you are there for them, and most importantly give them the confidence to trust you implicitly.
I remind every parent out there that you are the first line of defence for your kids well being, and it's a full time job not a ten minute wonder.
Thank you so much Andy, together we can all make the world a safer place and hell for those who fill our hearts with pain.
Thanks so very much Vic. I agreed 100%.
Parents, please open your eyes.
Kids, open your eyes too. Please, never sell your bodies.
A hug to every one, specially the kids.
Vic said...
Thanks Andy, my first promotion in years and I'm blushing from head to toe.
Luc said...
Thanks Vic. I like it too. Is worth it.
ANOTHER ONE. (by Andy)
I fund this one and is from yesterday.
This is so wrong.
This is not good.
Stop doing this adults. You are hurting us.
Pornoostrov Crimea: "naked" attractions of Azov
24.01.2011 08:52
In the past year, thanks to law enforcers Luhansk journalists began a formal investigation into the case on a local studio that produced and printed, child porn.When police officers began investigating the case of pedophiles, it became clear that such surveys were not unique: many years on the territory of Russia, Moldova and ...Crimea act affiliates kinofirmy, which removes the "boyish porn" for foreigners.
Newspaper journalists "1" had a journalistic investigation. In the course of it, and they have a anonymous informant, who generously shared all the information available about the actions of pedophiles on the peninsula. Newspaper "1" is grateful to this man, and Luhansk journalists of the newspaper Molodogvardeets "for their help in exposing the sex traffickers who earn lot of money on the Crimean boys.
"Naked" Az
Thus, in the course of an investigation by police officers Luhansk became known that the Crimean branch of the company, which produces movies of naked teens, called Azov Films. Accordingly, you guessed it, the shooting of these are held on the shores of the Azov Sea, which, incidentally, is clearly seen in movies, provided by our anonymous source.
However, the actual film is difficult to call: a set of chaotic shots taken clearly unprofessional, is currently home-video, where naked boys 8 to 14 years of swimming in the sea, lying on the sand, pump pump, inflatable boats, chased by a car, play billiards , fool around in the sauna, somersault in hotel rooms. A accompanies these indecent pictures: English, telling about what is progressive in the European and world culture phenomenon - naturism and how it has finally become free from us, after having been removed the communist bans.
It is appropriate to clarify what the term meant. Here's the official definition of naturism taken XIV World Congress of the International Federation of Naturism in 1974: "This is life in harmony with nature, expressed through social nudity, and characterized by mutual respect people of different views and concern for the environment." In other words, naturists and more well-known ordinary Soviet citizen nudists - the same thing.
In general, anything wrong in this movement there - people simply do not hesitate to yourself and others in nudity, perceiving it as something natural, and therefore is not shameful. Worldwide, there are nudist resorts and beaches where naturists gather their families - with children and grandparents.
It can be said for philosophy - for the people of the civilized and highly cultured, with no place perverts, or naturism immediately transformed into pornography. But as they say, every family has its black sheep - unfortunately, among nasturistov especially a lot of perverts, people with a sick mentality. It is therefore hardly surprising that in a certain context, the word "naturism" acquires a very negative sense.
Such an unfortunate reputation earned and naturist facilities, which is located on the coast of the Tatar Bay Kazantip bay of Azov. Even in the times of the Union in one of Moscow travel agencies have decided to create one of the tourist centers on the Azov first naturist campsite in the USSR. The idea failed.
"Naked" attractions of Azov very well in harmony with his naked guests, who were splashing in the shallow sea and sunbathed naked on the beach with a "nude". Originally naturism on the Azov coast was not anything particularly revolutionary, and not perceived as a threat to moral order. Can not say that it seems as natural outcrop on the Azov coast now.
Naturist activities Base seemingly has not changed: more than twenty houses with facilities in the cafe-bar with karaoke, a sanitary unit with shower and laundry facilities, restrooms, soccer field, rolling water and mountain bikes, boats and watercraft. In general, anything supernatural, and usually quite primitive. But some tourists! And it's mostly foreigners. By the way, prices are biting, even a very - $ 300 per day.
Really sophisticated foreigners dumped so much money only for sparse attractions of Azov and the amenities below average? As it turns out, not only. Lugansk investigators have videos of child nudity (they are in possession "1"), where it is clearly recognizable neighborhood Crimean naturist base. However, the filmmakers do not hide it, describing it as Scenes from Crimea, that is, "Scenes from the Crimea." In addition, there were credible reports that this nudist resort is visited by foreign pedophiles.
Local historian and his "Lolita"
Remember, it is near the Azov base for naturists year ago, police arrested a pedophile in Germany, which is corrupting minors and removed ugly scenes at the photo and video camera. How then told the Crimean media law enforcers schelkinskogo Gorotdel police pedophile first visited here in the summer of 2008, then came the winter and come back in for the third time in the summer of 2009.
He rubbed the trust of the boys 10 - 15 years old, walked with them, asked to show him the sights, and then offered to star in an erotic film. Paid for the session to 250 hryvnia.Pervert children drove into the picturesque bay and on the unfinished nuclear power plant.There he made them run around naked, posing in indecent poses, caressing each other masturbate. How then to explain the law enforcement bodies, shot video and photos of it on a designated site on what a good earning. Now it appears that at these sites was located and products Azov Films. According to our anonymous, worked as a German it is to this company, registered in Canada, in Toronto.
Thus, the production of Azov Films considered porn, filmed for pedophiles, which, however, and so visible to the naked eye. And now there is a sense closer to take this video. In one of the movies available to "1" at the beginning of the third part of the film are large portraits of nude boys-actors with their nicknames: Ruslan, Buddha, Pinocchio.
Search soon brought to a completely accessible information about the members of one of the Crimean informal youth associations (studio) working in street culture. Moreover, the comparison showed that coincided not only "road name" (aliases), but the appearance of some boys, face and body are literally flashed in every movie Azov Films.
But what kind of association, individual members of which were "porn star"? Established studio in 1994 (her name we do not indicate, considering how much Simferopol children and adolescents for many years to spend here their leisure time), one of the Simferopol enthusiast. And his real name we do not call, change, and his road name-calling, for example, an ice pick. And he began by saying that children had gathered around him.
Judging by his opus, posted on his personal site, despite the fact that he has exceeded forty, at heart he remained a boy, so he wanted to be closer to them, to the boys, away from adults. And the kids were with him, too interesting. Still, Ledorub not a fool, a man fully developed, well-known local historian, a lover of travel and extreme sport (this is when the bicycle on the potholes or on a skateboard-jumping). In addition, he taught children techniques, methods of recording, editing, working with sound, light, computer.And of course, while all over the peninsula led to campaigns. In these campaigns have been a lot of fun - playing a prank kids excitedly at home because this is not allowed.
And my uncle at this time, apparently, they photographed and video filmed. Capture everything: and as the kids breakfast, and how to participate in competitions, and how to swim in the sea naked. It is possible (even likely), the shooting were conducted with the consent of the boys. But would agree to it by their parents, knowing that his uncle then vicious overseas will stare at their children's online or on DVD, and licking their lips?
Of course, readers may doubt: that part of the studio Simferopol boys ice ax in the filming of "naturist" movie does not mean that they pushed for a "teacher" or that he has to Azov Films. And they're right, because such charges are not razrasyvayutsya. Therefore, "1" attempted to verify the suspicion.
Own Producer
Let's start with the so-called circumstantial evidence. Ice pick is not very cautious all the time. Firstly, on his personal website, access to which is absolutely free, there is a special page called "Naturism". Secondly, in no way embarrassed by its status as a caregiver, posting on forums, articles and letters on the topic was not puritanical. For instance, local history enthusiast to talk about intimturizma - adults and children.
Writes that "funny stuff" for adults, we can see and even shoot yourself. But then he complains that it is impossible to duplicate and sell. But in Russia there is the concept of "license free", it is advertised and sold openly. "I do not know - Ledorub wrote in one article - is it possible to carry through the Ukrainian customs, but I think we can accept via satellite, and the coded mode, probably, and show in cable networks, including those in hotels .. . 'Very nice, is not it?
There is other evidence. When an anonymous informant provided a "1" videos of child nudity, claiming that the author of these works is ice pick, journalists decided to double-check everything - you never know, maybe at Simferopol boy earns money not their teacher, as someone else? Anonymous gave a list of sites and passwords, where you can watch movies and photo studio Azov Films.
It turned out that, previously quite affordable at the moment they are all practically blocked for Ukrainian users. But with the help of experts in the field of computer technology we have managed to crack a few of them. And that's what was interesting. In the name of dirty files, or, more simply, in the name of the film or photos, everywhere, there are two English letters - abbreviaturnoe name of the official site of ice axes (we call them XX), which he uses the Internet along with a full "road name".
And look those links in such a way (we give them is incomplete, not to promote the dissemination of pornography): dvds-HHproduction, XX or XX-boys-sauna. And interestingly, Ledorub absolutely not shy to put your full name or abbreviaturnoe as under its benign opus, the usual photos and video site, and a material with nudity.
Finally, an Internet trail led us through keywords boy-bath-scene (a scene of boys in the bathroom) and boy-nudity (male-nudist) to one widely popular in the narrow circles of the site, which gathers many diverse content of films, among them "naturist". Here we found five films of our hero, in the credits to which stated his name as a director. Removed they were from 2005 to 2007, the time occupied by less than an hour, and almost everywhere there are naked boys, or rather, in the terminology of the director, naturists.
And to interested spectators missed the "strawberry" is given a summary. For example, from the abstracts in English to one of the film follows: "This is the final film in the series of Azov films (again Azov Films - Ed.) With Vlad. Here they are with their friends camping in the woods and explore some caves. Day ends with a sauna. Vladik and his 14-year-old friend Roman completely naked in the sauna and bath. The content of other movies at least revelatory: "accidental nudity teen and preteen on the beach", "direct exposure of adolescents in a sauna", "decade of the Crimean boys in the bathroom."
Crimean newspaper journalists "1" ready to convey all the information available to them the evidence base (photos and video, text printing, etc. ...) in the case of pedophiles Crimean law enforcement agencies.
Author: Julia Israfilov, "
I really hope authorities stop all this with kids.
No body have the right to hurt kids.
What`s going on with all this people?
Parents and kids, open your eyes.
Kids, be safe out there.
Please, don`t sale your bodies for money.
We love you all.
Hugs,
Andy
AN ANOTHER (by Andy)
For participating in porn movies Luhansk children pay 25 hryvnia
26.05.2010 08:59
For more than three years in Lugansk "clone", and went out into the light of video films in Luhansk schoolchildren. On the snapshots of one of porn movies and flaunts the school itself, among the students who takes "actors", near the school director spends the festive "ruler" ... Immediately elegant first-graders, teenagers, high school ...
BOYS FROM $ 12
These films were placed in one of the English language sites, offering visitors a view "Trailer" (announcement), and snapshots of the "product". Interested visitors can purchase products and at very reasonable prices - from 12. cu What's New "box office" is offered three times as much, from 40-50 USD for a drive.
Among the actors involved in the movies, and Lugansk were boys - students of a school Zhovtnevyy district, located in the eastern neighborhoods.
Perhaps because no one would know that the Lugansk became almost the center of child porn industry, if not for an anonymous message on one of Luhansk Internet forums.
Well-wishers, will post this information, frankly outraged that no one pays attention to the "chaos going on in your town."
And he pointed out not only the number of schools where children were recruited, but even their names and classes in which they learn. And in proof of the "tossed" link on the site, on which are placed "clips", photos and movies involving children (the most "harmless" we have placed for example - Ed). On the snapshots of one of the disks adorned the school itself, near which the director holds a festive "ruler". Immediately elegant first-graders, teenagers, high school ...
For several years, to participate in the filming of it occupied by students of this school. To the question, did the school administration, what do students, the director said that these are only rumors.
- It's not our children - he stressed.
We have reliable information that children working in the movies - students 8 th grade is the school.
But that tells Lugansk law enforcers.
- Because in this message (on the forum - aut.) Outlined the specific school in the city of Lugansk and, moreover, indicate the names of students, we were obliged to check the facts. Frankly, at the very beginning the police did not rule out that someone decided to make fun of evil by their own peers and thus discredit them in the eyes of my classmates, neighbors, and so on. Unfortunately, with so often encounter.
However, viewing the site, which cited anonymous, we found that, indeed, such a firm advertised itself as a sound production company specializing in the production of video "exciting" content, which shows the "stars" - the boys aged from 12 years in the nude form.The audit also confirmed that, indeed, the "actors" are students of grades 7-9 of a school in the regional center. Total of the case featured a dozen teenagers.
In principle, does not matter from what school was very young actors. Worried that a shooting somehow knew neither parents nor teachers. In fact, according to our data, more than 10 boys from 12 years from time to time become "objects" porn producer.
By the way, the choice of "filmmakers" is also quite unusual. Pedophiles and those who "works" for them to prefer, as a rule, use of homeless boys, or children from dysfunctional families. This guarantees them a kind of security - well, who will miss little vagrants?Certainly no alcoholic parents! And these children are unlikely to who will listen.
Here at the auditions were selected, on the contrary, the best teenagers. How do I find law enforcement officers, this time the film was made on an individual and is likely to proplachennomu order. This is evidenced, and requirements for the candidate. "Beautiful, with clean skin, and certainly with ruddy cheeks, as in the picture." And this little boy found.
Silence of the Lambs
But why is silent, and the children themselves? Maybe they just do not know why it will continue to use their photos and video. But they had to strip naked and show their body. In addition, during the filming of "director" asked them "messing" with each other, raise your hands, sit on each other's knees, lie down next to each other, etc.
According to information available to us, "inspirer" shooting is considered the professional therapist with more practice, using various techniques, including "Erickson" hypnosis. This same person is very well known among pedophiles Runet.
Perhaps all these "professional" methods used by him and his "staff" for the "openness" of boys, correcting their "correct" behavior, simulations, including those in favor of nondisclosure. " That is, children are apparently so professionally handled by them, that nobody was afraid that they are someone tell you something, or even see fit to tell. And maybe, teenagers and just intimidated - threats of physical violence or the public.
Andrew, "director" movies, had promised in his "documentary and journalistic" movie fame Luhansk boys, said that soon all will know that in Ukraine and, in particular, in Lugansk live and learn the most beautiful boys in the world. But he really praised them - porn sites and gay content. And the children really "admired" deviants from around the world. Films were implemented in the United States, Europe, Canada, Australia, New Zealand, Japan. Has a circulation of 50,000 DVD copies of each movie. In 2009, produced over 10 films for the price, on average, $ 40. Sami boy gets 25 hryvnia for "session".
Footage were put forward by the authors site as a juvenile erotica, naturalistic photography. But it was much more serious.
Also anonymous, told about the porn industry, suggested: photo and video - just "advertising" for sex-traffickers around the world. And it means - Lugansk children have been and are at serious risk.
How was the meeting with the children of pedophiles?
Boys themselves only later, the investigators explained that he met a young man, who identified graduate student directing department of one of the universities of the Russian Federation. It was he who suggested that adolescents universal glory of the cinematic arena.
The boy did not need to do "nothing in this, just to chase a soccer ball, going to skating rinks, play tennis. Only after all the action moves to the sauna, where the director has already started doing that, for what, in fact, it was all planned. The camera fell to the level of the genitals of children, and their attitudes, on the advice of the director, became very ambiguous.
Why parents are not asked who the "good uncle" who drives their kids to fitness complex, organized, pays them to excursions and other leisure fed baby goodies - chocolate and chips? In addition, the video uploaded on the website, there is shooting, and children in the flats and directly next to the school where they studied. But none of the adults - parents and teachers - have not sounded the alarm.
PORNODELTSY well aware of the Criminal Code. WHY NOT AFRAID
"Direction" law enforcers detained in early May in one of the saunas Zhovtnevyy area. The entire company - 32-year-old Andrew and four teenagers from 13 to 17 years old at that time just were in the steam room. With the camera and the camera. In the rest room was installed equipment for professional photography.
It seemed that Andrew was not even surprised the arrival of the police officers. But do not understand boys flock vyporhnuvshie of the steam room, began shyly, and hurried to hide behind. Unlike Andrew, who, rather the opposite, even started a kind of "posing" operational cell.
As he told about himself, he was 32 years old, he lives in Lugansk about a year, with relatives, which came from Chita Russian Federation, engaged in "music" - he introduced himself his occupation.
The boys, seeing in it a very specific camera shots, blushing. "Uncle Andrew" promised them that takes them to his waist.
Andrew said that he sees nothing wrong with that steamed himself with the boys. Said that he was sure that they all have in 16 years. By the way, with him in the sauna, there were four teenagers aged 13 to 17 years. The eldest is now studying at a university in Lugansk, and earlier, a student of the same school, took an active part in the filming.
According to Andrew, filming in the sauna - just an amateur.
- What's so that we decided to withdraw, so to say, memory? - He asks. And then, with confidence, demonstrating knowledge, said: Ukrainian legislation does not prohibit this kind of shooting.
True, the young man had miscalculated, not having read the amended the Criminal Code of Ukraine.
According to preliminary research at the Donetsk Research Institute, taking into account recent changes in the Ukrainian legislation, seized from a Russian citizen in detention photographs and videos have signs of pornography.
This means that there is every reason to proceed on the "genius" dirty cinema criminal case. The situation for the "director" is compounded by the fact that in this case appear youths under 18 years of age.
Of course, the detainees - just a performer, a tiny cog in a vast edifice of child porn industry developed around the world. Now Luhansk law enforcement agencies will be a difficult task - to reach customers and owners' business. "
NOTE TO PARENTS
According to some, pornography is the third largest in the world by revenue, after drugs and arms trade. Every year in this business are attracted to two million children. Income from child porn revenue exceeds the Colombian drug mafia. According to Interpol, "the master of child porn" shoot for children from 2 months to 12 years each year to bail out $ 1 billion ...
For some time now more than 75% of all child pornography is distributed on the Internet, where, according to some estimates, there are almost 40,000 pornographic websites.And this figure will certainly grow. Monitoring of Ukrainian Web sites showed that they contained about 20 percent of the forbidden pornography, including children. Demand for such pornography is three times greater than the supply!
99% of the consumers of child pornography are men. Price on Internet porn ranges from $ 20 to $ 150 per month, depending on the services they offer.
Schema that are online pedophiles in search of new victims is simple. Criminals come in children's on-line chat rooms, there are introduced to children. Talk a little bit and placing the child for himself, the offender shall designate a meeting "in real life" - prepositions can be completely different. To stimulate the "victim", offer money or other consideration.Particularly quickly "hooked" kids from poor families and adolescents who do not have enough "pocket money". Sometimes as a reward offered drugs. When a child is "caught in a trap" - is meeting at the "real" and photo and video shooting.
Zlata Volkonskaia prepared with the assistance of the CCA AMIA Ukraine in Luhansk region, XXI Century
This is really scary.
Parents and kids, open your eyes.
For poor or in need you are, this is NOT the way to make money. Please, don`t sale your bodies.
Hugs,
Andy
Vic said...
I am appalled by these reports and the abandonment of parental care these children have been left to fend for themselves, this is an open invitation for child abuse as seen in these reports. What makes it even far worse is that preteen kids have no conception what they are involved in, hence the bags of sweets and other treats to entrap their total unawareness of what lies ahead.
The real fight against paedophilia is a watchful eye that continually monitors your children's activity, a missing clue is a danger waiting to happen and another young life destroyed if you take your responsibilities lightly. Always let your children know you are there for them, and most importantly give them the confidence to trust you implicitly.
I remind every parent out there that you are the first line of defence for your kids well being, and it's a full time job not a ten minute wonder.
Thank you so much Andy, together we can all make the world a safer place and hell for those who fill our hearts with pain.
OK (by Andy)
The AZOV chapter is gone.
I will try to keep Robert legacy going for a while.
Luc will not be around for a while.
I will keep you all updated, until Luc come back.
Hugs,
Andy
Vic said...
Hello Andy
It's a shame things screwed up with the Azov palaver, Luc was totally innocent and yet he was left holding the dogs tail in a slanderous backlash. None of this should draw attention away from Luc's compassionate heart, the boundless energy he has shown by digging deep to share his love and aiding others in need of his help. We have all witnessed examples of what he stands for, and should we not forget that he often neglects his own life to ensure nothing is left undone. This is a remarkable achievement for a lad barely into his teens, and I speak for every one by saying your time is our meeting point when you do return.
A BEAUTIFUL THING. (by Andy)
I always say this "this is one of the most beautiful things I ever saw", but is truth, what I experience last Monday was one of them.
We invite few friends to spend the day. Luc and me really have 3 of the 16 kids, because the rest were Andres and Steve friends, from the boy scouts.
Luc have laptops ready for all of them and was a good thing. They were pretty happy, and that is all we want, to see them smiling, that is priceless. Well, all of them except Jessy, he all ready have one.
We were at the pool and Luc was explaining to the kids, the safety rules, then he felt someone puking his back, and when he turns, it was Jessy, standing behind him without crutches. It was a silent moment, you can hear a pin drop. Oh Luc. Luc, Luc. I love my big bro so much. He wasn`t able to say nothing, he just was looking at Jessy from top to bottom, and his eyes start to fill up with tears, he is so silly some times, mmm....well not silly, but like so pure, he start to sob and just did could hug Jessy. Then hold Jessy`s hand and help him to walk back to the bench where his crutches were. Jessy have been improving so much and after Luc was able to rise funds for his new legs supports (thanks pa Joe), he have been able to start walking few steps at a time; he told me that he wants to surprise Luc, we plan this to surprise him. Then, the so scary to water bodies boy, ask Luc to lift him and just hold him by his arms, and place him in the water; he told Luc to watch him, and just start to swim to the other side of the pool, then just turn and came back under water. Jessy have become a fish. He ask Luc "what do you think? it will be possible for you to teach me to dive now? do you think I can make it?". Luc answered him that will just depend on his doctor`s, that if his doctor say is ok, he will teach him to dive, and that he have no doubt in his mind about him been able to do anything. Jessy answered him that thanks to him he thinks the same way now, and that he doesn`t know how much he loves him. Hmmm.....Luc lift him out of the pool and all wet as he was, just hug him for a long time, and told him that he loves him too and how thankful he is to God for give him the privilege to meet him, and how proud he is of him. See why I said it was one of the most beautiful moments I ever had? See? I am so content, happy and thankful to God for my life now. I never, in my wildest dreams, thought God will bless me with a so awesome big bro and two little bros. I wish so much every kid have a bro like my bros, they all are awesome, so awesome!
What Luc and Jessy did in the pool, so natural for us; leave the other kids with a so happy faces, some of them were teary eyes, but I was watching them, to see the reaction, that event will cause in them; and what I saw was pretty cool, beautiful.
Well, Luc is doing good again. I think that the experience he went through with Rob, will come to assault him through his life, but I know, that every time it happens, Luc comes stronger and will be handle it better every time. That is my prayer.
He have been banned from the computer and other things for a while, specially after the episode with AZOV, that situation with a so immature and arrogant adult, really affect him; but because his improvement, he will be allow to use it again, little by little.
I have no school today, I like school, but is ok for a change. UHG!, I have to go for a hair cut, not funny.
Do good kids, and bullys, stop!
Be safe out there.
Parents, talk and listen to your kids.
Hugs,
Andy
P.S. I want to say this: Jessy have to use his legs supports to walk still, when he stand behind luc, he was with his legs supports on, when in the pool, he took out his legs supports. He just surprise luc to be walking without crutches but with his legs supports on. We hope he will walk without the crutches but with his legs supports on and then in a future, without nothing.
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Vic said...
Add me to the tears list because I'm crying like everyone else over Jessy's miraculous feat to overcome his handicap, and what makes it so sweet is that he sprung his surprise on an unsuspecting Luc. Jessy, you're my hero and I'm immensely proud of you.
Luc said...
Thanks Vic. Jessy needs his legs supports still, but the first step for him is walk without crutches, just with his legs supports. Later, we are praying for him to be able to walk without nothing, and he is so brave, that I have no doubt in my mind that he can make it.
Hugs
HUM. THIS IS DANGEROUS. (by Andy)
Well, I said that the situation with the AZOV films owner that was acusing Ruben to be a pedophile, was close, but I get an email from an adult, with this about AZOV films in a Russian newspaper.
I`ll let you to decide and for the kids to open their eyes.
"Crimean boys are used as expensive prostitutes?
19.04.2011 08:51
Journalistic investigation on the participation of Crimean boys "naturist" video and photography, are on the peninsula held simferopolets who calls himself an ice pick on the Internet (nick changed). Investigation of this case has already occupied the Crimean police, and while law enforcement officers can not tell us about the investigation so as not to harm him. Meanwhile, we continue to receive information that gives reason to believe that Ledorub not only made films with the participation of Crimean naked boys, but also underlay them at vip-clients as expensive prostitutes.
Author: Julia Israfilov, "1"
Internet: good and evil
As well, in due time came the Internet. And how bad it is. The World Wide Web is both good and evil simultaneously. Well, for example, with regard to pedophiles: almost 90% of deviants entrenched in his addiction thanks to the Internet. At first they suffered from its "irregularities" in the dungeons of the home, and then, when there was an Internet, began to communicate with their like, and then they had a firm belief that "we are many, we are a force, we are right ..."
But as you know, every action causes a reaction. At the same time thanks to the Internet, numerous volunteer organizations who are fighting every way and are struggling with pedophiles and pedophilia in general. On one of them said "1" is our Anonymous (human him thank you for your cooperation).
That organization is called the "Militia of manners." She has created an official website where released database of pedophiles and their victims. The site presents the results of a unique network investigation of organized criminal groups of pedophiles, seduce hundreds of underage boys from the former CIS. As the authors write the site, the materials of these crimes are true and were placed at our disposal by implementing a disguised pedofilskuyu network of front men, as well as through recruitment of pedophile-whistleblower.
Proceedings of the site are updated periodically, and recently it got a lot of information about the Crimean ice axes. Naturally, that antipedofilskom site listed real name and nickname ice pick, but we still do not call them, taking into account the interests of the investigation.
"Naturist Business
One of the articles posted on this site http://druzhinanr.atwebpages.com (by the way, access to it right now for some reason unavailable), explains that Ledorub was seen in pedofilskoy get-together at the end of 1990. One of the first mentions of it to the web is found in 2000 in the reference section at pedofilskom portal with the pretentious name "The Great virtual ring.
Here Ledorub settled in the vicinity of the Russian National Boylan server "famous Russian pedophile soup, Rybakov and" circle of pedophiles-masturbation. " More widely known among pedophiles Ledorub acquired as the author of a huge number of videos with the participation of Crimean boys. Now experts are exploring these videos, by establishing whether they are pornographic or naturist, as their positioning himself Ledorub.
"We tried to find videos ice pick, in which he was a true naturist would remove themselves and their families in the nude, as do real naturists, but have not found ... - Wrote "The brigade morals" and continues. - In the case of an ice pick takes place not naturism as banal peeping (voyeurism), a pedophile for the genitals of children, with only one gender - male. Believe me, no self-respecting connoisseur of naturism will not shoot such films, especially for sale at pedofilskih sites.
Naturism ledoruba really far from the traditional, and the indisputable fact is confirmed by pedophiles themselves. Relishing in their forums movies ice pick, they did not discuss the aesthetics of naturism, but quite something else: how much he pays his "superstar" for an hour shoot and how to "remove" these boys for the night? In this case, pedophiles cynically mock the hapless children, noticed that nezagorelye parts of their bodies give them naturists in inverted commas, which are bare for the first time over the summer for the money.
The other day "1" was the new "naturist" videos and photos ice axes. Displayed on the site they named Boyjoy, containing a huge number of explicit porn pedofilskim and homosexual bias. Among other video movie ledoruba with Crimean boy named Sasha (name changed), which is "superstar" ledorubovskoy nudity (we already wrote about it). In minute video is absolutely naked teen having sex with a "rubber woman" from a sex shop.
Immediately under the name Kenny posted a series of photographs of the Crimean another boy - he is just like Sasha, from his childhood he was a member of the official club ice axes (we have a demonstrative video). In these pictures completely naked Kenni masturbating in some cheap hotel room, and in a close with all its consequences. And all this is called a naturist? Net pornography! Rather, dirty.
It is clear that an unhealthy interest in ice axes for the shooting of naked boys who were also engaged in sex in front of the camera, not just his "hobby", but quite a successful "business". Sale films not only brought fame and glory pervert among the like, but also laid the groundwork for its not a small state.
Recall the "business" ice ax - one of the main functions of the international syndicate pedofilskogo under common "roof" Azov-Films . "The Club" ice ax - his Crimean branch, along with Lugansky, Western Ukrainian (Chernivtsi), Irkutsk (former Baikal-Films), Romanian and others. Main site Azov-Films and the headquarters of a criminal syndicate are in Canada (Toronto).
From theory to practice?
Despite the absolute lack of talent, video ledoruba very soon conquered the global market for pornography pedophiles. Many foreign and local pedophiles fell out with unbridled passion for ledorubovskim boys. Bribed their looseness and the apparent accessibility of the naked body: it seemed, Stretch hands, and it is already in your arms. As it turns out Ledorub not miss the opportunity to "earn" and on this, and gradually turned much of his "business" in the sex-tourism for the wealthy pedophiles.
According to our anonymous and "Militia of morals" for pedophiles, who do not like camping scout camps, and enjoy ledorubovskoy "zaychatinki" (incidentally, the "stowaways" to each other pedophiles called boys) really want an ice offers tours to bases in the Crimea the company of boys under the guise of various "festivals" and "events". The interiors of one of these databases - "private estates Alimov Balka" - thinly veiled in many movies, ice axes.
Of course, outwardly it looks decently, everything taboo is hidden from prying eyes.However, much of what is happening there, it is possible to understand the details of some personnel. For example, one of them depicts a special room with no windows, equipped with a huge bed, which occupies almost all the space of the room. On the wall of a large mirror (behind the boy), obviously, for those who yearn to see everything happening simultaneously in different projections.
In addition, according to "Militia manners", several phrases boys movie soundtrack raise serious suspicions that pedophiles do not just use these kids as "cover girl", but also subjected them to sexual violence. That transcript fragment movie soundtracks Azov-Films - Vladik Remembered Vol 2DVD, which is posted on the website "Militia of manners:" What is going? - I'm leaving ... it will not hurt! "
Obviously, it is that those who will voluntarily pay more, that's only going to hurt, and not all boys are like. But deciphering the fragment movie soundtracks Azov-Films - Scenes from Crimea Vol.4 (2009): "When you're on an operation well ... do what you do there?" In these dialogues involving two: Chipollino (nickname is changed) and Philip (Phil ), this scene is recorded at 71-minute film. The boys get up to mischief, especially Chipollino, and Philip, somewhat offended, decided to put another in place, hinting to him who he is.
Criminal "roof"
"Business" ledoruba carefully disguised tourism, scout movement, naturism, and never by itself does not advertise. But all the secret sooner or later becomes apparent. The first alarm bell was sounded in 2001 after a visit to the Crimea by German artist known pedophile Otto Lomyullera which krymchanin, "naturist" invited guests (as we have already mentioned). According to the anonymous, the artist met with the boys, ice axes, and even visited with a sauna.
Upon returning to Germany, border guards discovered a Lomyullera photos of naked children, and immediately made a request through Interpol, if there was any violence.Anonymous writes us, "from a source close to your police station and credible, sex between Lomyullerom and children was, but then no complaints filed, and now will not - Ledorub pays the children and their parents ..." In how!
The artist then was accused of pedophilia, and Lomyulleru took a lot of effort and money to hush up the matter. Strongly mess then and ice, but last helped to escape responsibility those most influential pedophiles, whom he, according to information received from the site "Militia morals", "treated" (though other personal property) boys. As pointed out by "Militia", among these freaks a lot of very famous people, reading the names of which will inevitably cause a huge scandal in the Crimea, and not only.
Mention so far only one helper, who had long been known as a pedophile, prikormlenny ax. We are talking about the famous pornofotografe Krivon (Sting) - also known as Alexander P. Krivonogov (born in 1958 in Munich). As well as the Azov-Films, a firm in Germany Krivonogova Krivon-Image International sold to pedophiles movies ice axes.However, except for "business", an ice pick and Krivonogova bound and much more.
All pedofilskaya tusovka knows that Krivonogov personally have repeatedly used the services of ice axes, and by the very highest category - it is not served by any chance the boys had bought at the station, and "Superstar" ledorubovskoy anthology - Sasha (the same one who had sex with a rubber doll). Is no coincidence that footage with Sasha offer many of the films ledoruba issued Krivonogova. As we wrote in 2009, Alex died tragically in a car crash under mysterious circumstances.
His death was a serious blow to the "business" ice axes. Sasha continued to work on it and after grown up and ceased to interest pedophiles as human merchandise. He acted as a pimp, delivering Ledorub new candidates to the "superstar", and starred in adult porn films (we also have a video).
For past and current "merit" to the firm ledoruba vip-pedophiles even gave Sasha a brand new foreign car in which he crashed. Now law enforcement officers are scratching their heads: if this was not aligned to the accident? Because it occurred, according to witnesses, just the plain, where nothing that interfered and did not pose a potential danger.
Probably the secret of this tragedy will remain undisclosed. We note only that Ledorub was quite capable of silencing his former "superstar". "Militia morals" found that the son-in-ice ax is a member of the well-known in the Crimea, organized crime, which he uses in his order for the "protection racket" "business" test.
By the way, the publication of "1" on the activities of ledoruba sparked violent reactions pedophiles. On their forums, but insults and threats, child molesters accused journalists of his publications that we break the psyche of children and exposes them to danger. It sounds outrageous! Hell is for children creates pedophiles, and they break the psyche and the fate of the children. Perverts should look in the mirror if they want to see the real culprits of the tragedy of child.
Obviously, knowing that the project Azov-Films has exhausted its possibilities, its creators have launched a new porn site EuroWold Studios with the same content as the previous.In this case, pedophiles have attempted to cover up the traces: revelatory articles in the press about the activities of Azov-Films pedophiles announced the machinations of the mythical "competitors", which opened EuroWold Studios, - about it, they even wrote a commentary on the website of the newspaper. In fact, the owners of Azov-Films and EuroWold Studios - the same person.
The harder pedophiles away from punishment for their crimes, so abundant they curse all who oppose them. Threats received against those who fight against pedophiles, once again proving that ice pick and his company have something to hide from justice."
Whoa! this really scares me, no wonder our parents doesn`t want us posting our pics. They even have told us that if we want to go nude at the beach, will be in our beach and in Europe, they even have start suggesting to stop going nude at any beach at all, that if we want to go nude, we better start thinking in our pool, no more. No wonder.
Hope this will serve for parents and kids, to open their eyes.
And I am piss now at the AZOV owner. Is this person the one accusing Ruben to be a pedophile? The guy got balls I must say. But he mess with the wrong kid. Yeah he did.
Andy
OK RO (by Lucas) Saturday, February 19, 2011
I talk to you in my dreams this morning and is the first time I didn`t wake up crying.
How is that you comfort me even in my dreams? I know you`re in a better place and even I will miss you for the rest of my life, you took from me something so heavy.
I promise you and I will. I start using the neck chain you give me with the cross and the inscription in the back “To the best bro ever. Ro.” And I saw you smiling behind me through my bedroom mirror. I didn`t turn because I know I won`t see you if I do, but we just stare at each other for a good few mins, until I see you no more. You`re so beautiful, and this time were tears of happiness and not sadness.
You`re always so close to me. In my heart is a place with your name.
What I miss the most is your tenderness. You use to ask me the most naive questions. There were no shame or walls between our love for each other. I always remember you, grabbing my face and looking in my eyes and telling me “Why are they so blue? You got like a little, tiny black dots in them.” And always finish asking me, “Would you married me my prince?”, I always answer you “Any time my love”, and we just laugh. This is what I miss so much. We just enjoy each other. We didn`t need video games or lots of games and things kids our age do. It was like a secret pact, that we have to enjoy us, because the time was coming. We both understood this without words. We just enjoy walking at the beach and feeling the waives and sand in our feet. Holding hands like a couple in love, well, we were a couple in love; the purest and most beautiful love I ever experience in my life. We lay down in the recliner out side at night, to see the stars and just love each other, through talking, hugging, kissing, until you pass out sleep and I just carry you in arms to bed, or we just spend the night there.
I got in my heart the most beautiful memories. They are and will be alive inside me for ever, until the day I see you again, and will be for eternity this time.
This is a picture a find and I love it because for me just describe you so well:
How is that you comfort me even in my dreams? I know you`re in a better place and even I will miss you for the rest of my life, you took from me something so heavy.
I promise you and I will. I start using the neck chain you give me with the cross and the inscription in the back “To the best bro ever. Ro.” And I saw you smiling behind me through my bedroom mirror. I didn`t turn because I know I won`t see you if I do, but we just stare at each other for a good few mins, until I see you no more. You`re so beautiful, and this time were tears of happiness and not sadness.
You`re always so close to me. In my heart is a place with your name.
What I miss the most is your tenderness. You use to ask me the most naive questions. There were no shame or walls between our love for each other. I always remember you, grabbing my face and looking in my eyes and telling me “Why are they so blue? You got like a little, tiny black dots in them.” And always finish asking me, “Would you married me my prince?”, I always answer you “Any time my love”, and we just laugh. This is what I miss so much. We just enjoy each other. We didn`t need video games or lots of games and things kids our age do. It was like a secret pact, that we have to enjoy us, because the time was coming. We both understood this without words. We just enjoy walking at the beach and feeling the waives and sand in our feet. Holding hands like a couple in love, well, we were a couple in love; the purest and most beautiful love I ever experience in my life. We lay down in the recliner out side at night, to see the stars and just love each other, through talking, hugging, kissing, until you pass out sleep and I just carry you in arms to bed, or we just spend the night there.
I got in my heart the most beautiful memories. They are and will be alive inside me for ever, until the day I see you again, and will be for eternity this time.
This is a picture a find and I love it because for me just describe you so well:
You are my hero. My warrior. My angel. My love.
You`re free Robert Mentzy.
Today is when I am really letting you go.
You will live for ever in my heart.
Later my love.
luc
PROJECT (by Lucas) Friday, February 4, 2011
I`ve been trying to keep my mind busy and start a project to help sexually, emotionally, physically challenge abused kids. I didn`t understand fully what the bible say about that is more joy in giving than to receiving, but I get it.
I`m trying to get laptops to give away to them to help them with school and do webcam with a group of kids in the same condition and get counseling online with the psychologist from my church. I ask him if he was able to help them without charge and he say yes. He`ll have once a week session with the kids.
There is a boy I meet on webcam. His name is Jessy. He is 12yo. He was abused by a family friend and he is physically challenge. He can`t walk without crutches and need kinda braces in his legs in order to get strength in his legs an maybe do it in a future without the crutches. He is in a wheelchair and I decide to do something. We give him Ro`s power chair and ask a friend for help. Well, there is good people out there. Joe McGuire send Jessy yesterday a laptop and not just that, he send to a family friend that fix computers a 200.- gift card to help me to complete the money to fix 4 laptops that I will give to 4 other kids in my old school today. And there is more, Joe will send me 300.- more to fix 6 other laptops i get to give away to other kids. Joe, you`re awesome. Thanks God for you good heart. I have to say it Joe.
Well, Jessy needs therapy in his legs and uncle Robert talk to a doctor friend of him. The doctor will send a therapist from his therapy center to our house to give Jessy therapy in our pool. I went to a hardware store yesterday and ask to talk to the general manager. I show him pictures of Jessy and explain to him what people been doing for him and what my project was about. I ask him to give me a budget for a ramp in Jessy`s house and he make a phone call and told me that they will do it for free and to fix the doors house for him to be able to go around his house more comfy. They just did the ramp yesterday and the doors will be done today.
Now I`m rising money for his legs support. I know I will get it. Oh and the hardware store offer to add a ramp to Jessy`s mum van to carry the power chair, and for free.
My dad is taking him to get contact lenses cus he need reading lenses and they are too thick. Will be better for him to use contacts.
He is so afraid of the pool. It was crushing for me yesterday to see how much fear he has, but I carry him to the pool and just seat with him in the pool stairs in the water on my lap. It was bad cus he was shaking so bad, but I just hold him tight to make him feel safe and start talking to him bout the computer and whatever comes to my mind in that moment. He start to relax and after bout 45 mins was able to turn on my lap and face the pool. I was holding him tight and he start to move his arms around and kinda splashing water around. It was a good time cus Andres, Andy and Steve were there and he was feeling comfy, but i notice that every time I kinda lose a little the hold, he gets terrified, but I just told him that I will never will let go, that I died first before do something like that. Well, we were there for bout hour and a half. I hope that today he will do it again cus he like it. Pray for Jessy to be able to get in the pool in order to get the therapy he needs.
We give lots of things for granted. That kid can`t even take a bath without help, but he thanks God every morning, cus he is able to see and is alive for another day. He got a beautiful smile on his face all the time and the most contageus laugh you can imagine. His happy smiling face is all I want from him.
I love that kid. His courage and appreciation for the simple things in life, his faith in God and his gratefulness to God for the things that he have, have been like an slap in my face. He is teaching me with his example to focus and be grateful to God for what I got and stop complaining and crying for what I don`t. To go on and work hard to achieve my dreams. To love and see the beauty each human being have. Jessy is an awesome kid.
I will start my home school next week. Lets see how goes. I can. I will.
This is bout what I`ve been doing.
Kids be safe. Share love. Is lots of ways to do it.
Parents be on your kids.
A hug to every kid out there. Specially the ones abused.
And for the ones that maybe feel lonely and no body loves you, I do.
Miss you Ro.
Hugs,
luc
I`m trying to get laptops to give away to them to help them with school and do webcam with a group of kids in the same condition and get counseling online with the psychologist from my church. I ask him if he was able to help them without charge and he say yes. He`ll have once a week session with the kids.
There is a boy I meet on webcam. His name is Jessy. He is 12yo. He was abused by a family friend and he is physically challenge. He can`t walk without crutches and need kinda braces in his legs in order to get strength in his legs an maybe do it in a future without the crutches. He is in a wheelchair and I decide to do something. We give him Ro`s power chair and ask a friend for help. Well, there is good people out there. Joe McGuire send Jessy yesterday a laptop and not just that, he send to a family friend that fix computers a 200.- gift card to help me to complete the money to fix 4 laptops that I will give to 4 other kids in my old school today. And there is more, Joe will send me 300.- more to fix 6 other laptops i get to give away to other kids. Joe, you`re awesome. Thanks God for you good heart. I have to say it Joe.
Well, Jessy needs therapy in his legs and uncle Robert talk to a doctor friend of him. The doctor will send a therapist from his therapy center to our house to give Jessy therapy in our pool. I went to a hardware store yesterday and ask to talk to the general manager. I show him pictures of Jessy and explain to him what people been doing for him and what my project was about. I ask him to give me a budget for a ramp in Jessy`s house and he make a phone call and told me that they will do it for free and to fix the doors house for him to be able to go around his house more comfy. They just did the ramp yesterday and the doors will be done today.
Now I`m rising money for his legs support. I know I will get it. Oh and the hardware store offer to add a ramp to Jessy`s mum van to carry the power chair, and for free.
My dad is taking him to get contact lenses cus he need reading lenses and they are too thick. Will be better for him to use contacts.
He is so afraid of the pool. It was crushing for me yesterday to see how much fear he has, but I carry him to the pool and just seat with him in the pool stairs in the water on my lap. It was bad cus he was shaking so bad, but I just hold him tight to make him feel safe and start talking to him bout the computer and whatever comes to my mind in that moment. He start to relax and after bout 45 mins was able to turn on my lap and face the pool. I was holding him tight and he start to move his arms around and kinda splashing water around. It was a good time cus Andres, Andy and Steve were there and he was feeling comfy, but i notice that every time I kinda lose a little the hold, he gets terrified, but I just told him that I will never will let go, that I died first before do something like that. Well, we were there for bout hour and a half. I hope that today he will do it again cus he like it. Pray for Jessy to be able to get in the pool in order to get the therapy he needs.
We give lots of things for granted. That kid can`t even take a bath without help, but he thanks God every morning, cus he is able to see and is alive for another day. He got a beautiful smile on his face all the time and the most contageus laugh you can imagine. His happy smiling face is all I want from him.
I love that kid. His courage and appreciation for the simple things in life, his faith in God and his gratefulness to God for the things that he have, have been like an slap in my face. He is teaching me with his example to focus and be grateful to God for what I got and stop complaining and crying for what I don`t. To go on and work hard to achieve my dreams. To love and see the beauty each human being have. Jessy is an awesome kid.
I will start my home school next week. Lets see how goes. I can. I will.
This is bout what I`ve been doing.
Kids be safe. Share love. Is lots of ways to do it.
Parents be on your kids.
A hug to every kid out there. Specially the ones abused.
And for the ones that maybe feel lonely and no body loves you, I do.
Miss you Ro.
Hugs,
luc
WHY? (by Lucas)
One of my favorites tv channels is military channel.
I was watching a program about WWII and the statistics at the end just disturb me.
There is no glory in the cost of human life.
-23 millions troops both sides.
-roughly 32 millions civilians.
-13,600,000 millions troops and 7,700,000 civilians (Soviet Union)
-13 millions China.
-7 " Poland.
-6 " Jude.
-51/2 " Germans.
-2 " Japan.
-600,000 French.
-350,000 Italy.
-350,000 British and 90,000 civilians.
-300,000 American troops.
About 55 million people die.
General McArthur:
"It is my earnest hope, and indeed the hope of all mankind, that from this solemn occasion a better world shall emerge out of the blood and carnage of the past -- a world dedicated to the dignity of man and the fulfillment of his most cherished wish for freedom, tolerance and justice."
We humans forgot things so quick.
Hugs,
luc
I was watching a program about WWII and the statistics at the end just disturb me.
There is no glory in the cost of human life.
-23 millions troops both sides.
-roughly 32 millions civilians.
-13,600,000 millions troops and 7,700,000 civilians (Soviet Union)
-13 millions China.
-7 " Poland.
-6 " Jude.
-51/2 " Germans.
-2 " Japan.
-600,000 French.
-350,000 Italy.
-350,000 British and 90,000 civilians.
-300,000 American troops.
About 55 million people die.
General McArthur:
"It is my earnest hope, and indeed the hope of all mankind, that from this solemn occasion a better world shall emerge out of the blood and carnage of the past -- a world dedicated to the dignity of man and the fulfillment of his most cherished wish for freedom, tolerance and justice."
We humans forgot things so quick.
Hugs,
luc
NO TITLE (by Lucas) Tuesday, February 1, 2011
This one is about lots of things. Mixed feelings and my point of view about them.
I`m moving on, sad but going on. I will miss you Ro for the rest of my life.
I`m trying to go back with the webcams sessions, but is a process.
I decide to abandon my chat room `cause it was getting on me in lots of ways.
I`m not sure yet if I`m going to be able to to do my home school this year, but I`m trying not to allow this to get on me too much, `cause I love school.
I`m trying to spread Ro`s legacy exporting this blog to wordpress, tumblr, facebook and twitter.
I get to the conclusion, that you have to go public to lots of ppl believe in this story.
Here is Ro`s pic but not mine.
I`m scare how open are lots of kids in tumblr, but at the same happy `cause they can express them selves there.
Is tricky, `cause lots of kids doesn`t express their hearts as deep as I express mine. But they got a face.
I can`t show mine, but you can see my heart.
Is lots of evil out there, and I`m so aware of that. Is been difficult to me to get to the conclusion, that I will wait to get 18 to go on with a blog about my self.
Why should any body out there believe me?
How they know if I`m not a predator?
How if I can`t prove it the right way?
How they know I`m who I say I am without a face?
Well, I can`t show you my face in the next 3 years.
But I`ve been showing you my heart.
So, will be up to you what your decision will be about believe or not.
I will pass from time to time to post and let you know about me.
I`m counting the days to the day I will be able to show all of you my face.
Meanwhile, here is my heart. Take it or leave it. Is all I can say.
I`m happy to see David in tumblr today. I love his heart. He is just a beautiful kid.
I`m on my way to normal. Enjoying Andres, Andy and Steve. They fill me with love every single day. I thanks God for them. I`ve being able to start laughing and getting fun again. Don`t know how long the process will be, but I`m on my way.
I have no words to express my gratitude to every one that have send me an email, leave a comment, text me, call me. Is priceless.
Please don`t hate me for not leave a thank for your comments, doesn`t mean I doesn`t appreciate them.
And remember:
"I can`t show you my face, but I can show you my heart."
A big hug for any kid out there that have been sexually abused, mistreated, rejected, bullied.
No body have the right to abuse you, in any way.
Please, tell some body.
Parents, watch out for your kids.
Adults, protect the kids, don`t hurt them.
Love you all.
Hugs,
luc
I`m moving on, sad but going on. I will miss you Ro for the rest of my life.
I`m trying to go back with the webcams sessions, but is a process.
I decide to abandon my chat room `cause it was getting on me in lots of ways.
I`m not sure yet if I`m going to be able to to do my home school this year, but I`m trying not to allow this to get on me too much, `cause I love school.
I`m trying to spread Ro`s legacy exporting this blog to wordpress, tumblr, facebook and twitter.
I get to the conclusion, that you have to go public to lots of ppl believe in this story.
Here is Ro`s pic but not mine.
I`m scare how open are lots of kids in tumblr, but at the same happy `cause they can express them selves there.
Is tricky, `cause lots of kids doesn`t express their hearts as deep as I express mine. But they got a face.
I can`t show mine, but you can see my heart.
Is lots of evil out there, and I`m so aware of that. Is been difficult to me to get to the conclusion, that I will wait to get 18 to go on with a blog about my self.
Why should any body out there believe me?
How they know if I`m not a predator?
How if I can`t prove it the right way?
How they know I`m who I say I am without a face?
Well, I can`t show you my face in the next 3 years.
But I`ve been showing you my heart.
So, will be up to you what your decision will be about believe or not.
I will pass from time to time to post and let you know about me.
I`m counting the days to the day I will be able to show all of you my face.
Meanwhile, here is my heart. Take it or leave it. Is all I can say.
I`m happy to see David in tumblr today. I love his heart. He is just a beautiful kid.
I`m on my way to normal. Enjoying Andres, Andy and Steve. They fill me with love every single day. I thanks God for them. I`ve being able to start laughing and getting fun again. Don`t know how long the process will be, but I`m on my way.
I have no words to express my gratitude to every one that have send me an email, leave a comment, text me, call me. Is priceless.
Please don`t hate me for not leave a thank for your comments, doesn`t mean I doesn`t appreciate them.
And remember:
"I can`t show you my face, but I can show you my heart."
A big hug for any kid out there that have been sexually abused, mistreated, rejected, bullied.
No body have the right to abuse you, in any way.
Please, tell some body.
Parents, watch out for your kids.
Adults, protect the kids, don`t hurt them.
Love you all.
Hugs,
luc
A MONTH (by Lucas) Friday, January 28, 2011
Ouch Ro, hurts.
I want to tell you so many things, but to you, I want to see you and hug you. I miss so much to hug and kiss you. Your laugh. Your jokes. Always teasing me to provoke me to tickles you. I miss tickling you so much. OMG, when this will go. The most time pass is getting worst? I know I will miss you for the rest of my life, but is getting hard to learn how to live without you.
I thanks God though for give me a so loving care parents and family. For send Andres, Andy and Steve to my life. They`ve been here for me all the way. My friends as well.
Is strange that some times cross my mind the desire to die, just to see you again. Is that I feel your absence so much, but I got my mind full of the most beautiful memories a human can have about a loving one. You`re my love Ro. You always will be.
luc
I want to tell you so many things, but to you, I want to see you and hug you. I miss so much to hug and kiss you. Your laugh. Your jokes. Always teasing me to provoke me to tickles you. I miss tickling you so much. OMG, when this will go. The most time pass is getting worst? I know I will miss you for the rest of my life, but is getting hard to learn how to live without you.
I thanks God though for give me a so loving care parents and family. For send Andres, Andy and Steve to my life. They`ve been here for me all the way. My friends as well.
Is strange that some times cross my mind the desire to die, just to see you again. Is that I feel your absence so much, but I got my mind full of the most beautiful memories a human can have about a loving one. You`re my love Ro. You always will be.
luc
ALLISTER? (by Lucas) Wednesday, January 26, 2011
You too Ally?
What the fuck is this?
Who`s next then?
Dad?
Mum?
Andres?
Andy?
Joe?
Cat?
Me?
Stop it!!!
Just stop it!!!
Leave me the fuck alone.
I want no more emails.
Fucking love is so good, but hurt so much.
Am I going to be criyng for the rest of my fucking life?
I want to love no more.
And I`m tired to dance in the fucking rain too.
I`m mad at you too God. You piss me really bad, you know?
All this life is so bull shit.
........but you with Him now Ally.......I will never forgotten you........and You, who else You`re going to take? Are You going to take every body and leave the planet empty?......Why You created for then?....I don`t want even talk to You no more.....
.....no hugs and no nothing for no body no more......I just feel to close all this shit.....fuck it.....
P.S. Is 11:55PM ET USA I won`t apologize for my tantrum there. Is how I was feeling this afternoon.
Our prayers with Ally`s family. OMG he was so sweet.
And yes, a hug to every body.
And yes, I will continue dancing in the rain.
And yes, I will continue loving.
And yes, I will continue blogging.
And no, I`m not mad at God no more.
I`m just too hurt.
Hugs,
luc
What the fuck is this?
Who`s next then?
Dad?
Mum?
Andres?
Andy?
Joe?
Cat?
Me?
Stop it!!!
Just stop it!!!
Leave me the fuck alone.
I want no more emails.
Fucking love is so good, but hurt so much.
Am I going to be criyng for the rest of my fucking life?
I want to love no more.
And I`m tired to dance in the fucking rain too.
I`m mad at you too God. You piss me really bad, you know?
All this life is so bull shit.
........but you with Him now Ally.......I will never forgotten you........and You, who else You`re going to take? Are You going to take every body and leave the planet empty?......Why You created for then?....I don`t want even talk to You no more.....
.....no hugs and no nothing for no body no more......I just feel to close all this shit.....fuck it.....
P.S. Is 11:55PM ET USA I won`t apologize for my tantrum there. Is how I was feeling this afternoon.
Our prayers with Ally`s family. OMG he was so sweet.
And yes, a hug to every body.
And yes, I will continue dancing in the rain.
And yes, I will continue loving.
And yes, I will continue blogging.
And no, I`m not mad at God no more.
I`m just too hurt.
Hugs,
luc
THE LETTER Thursday, January 20, 2011
I was trying to start reading Ro`s diary this morning but I wasn`t able to do it, but when I close it, an envelope falls and inside was the letter Paul leave for Ro the day he commit suicide.
I`m posting it, with the intention to move the hart of any sick person out there, that like to hurt kids. That is if they have a heart.
This is the letter.
"Dear Robert:
Your the best friend I ever have in my life. The most faithful, tender, strong, caring, sweet, with which I cried and laughed, which always comforted me with so much love and affection, that I hope all my secrets and never betray me. That I love with all my heart. The one who always has a smile for me, a hug, a kiss.
I do not live, I only exist, no sun, no stars or moon for me, my life has come to be a harsh winter, eternal night, I have no tears, my feelings have left me, sleep don`t come to me, everything scares me, I have no heart, I have to spend so much suffering for the damage that this man (do not want to call him father because he died for me that day) did to you.
My mum has no life, has been spend, it seems an old woman. My little brother has had to go to grands home. Everyone at school whisper when they see me and point the finger at me as the son of the child sexual predator.
Cursed the day I was born, cursed the day I meet you and invite you to my house, cursed the day this man did so much damage to you, damn the man who did it.
Life became too heavy for me, I can`t stand it.
Sorry to leave you and I hope you forgive me, please take care my beautiful friend of my little brother. I love you like the brother you has always been to me.
This is my way of punishing the damned who hurt you.
I will love you for ever.
Paul"
The evil that man did have cost the life of two of the most awesome, loving kids.
Ro left me speechless when he told me he forgive that man. Well, that was Ro. A forgiving heart.
I hope this letter have touch some evil heart and at least one kid out there will be safe.
Parents be on your kids.
Kids be aware.
Bullies stop!
It is so hard to have some tolerance and express some love to try to make this planet a better place to live?! Both are free. Why don`t start to give some?!
A hug for every one, specially any kid out there that have been sexually abused or bullied.
If you are reading this, you are a beautiful person.
luc
I`m posting it, with the intention to move the hart of any sick person out there, that like to hurt kids. That is if they have a heart.
This is the letter.
"Dear Robert:
Your the best friend I ever have in my life. The most faithful, tender, strong, caring, sweet, with which I cried and laughed, which always comforted me with so much love and affection, that I hope all my secrets and never betray me. That I love with all my heart. The one who always has a smile for me, a hug, a kiss.
I do not live, I only exist, no sun, no stars or moon for me, my life has come to be a harsh winter, eternal night, I have no tears, my feelings have left me, sleep don`t come to me, everything scares me, I have no heart, I have to spend so much suffering for the damage that this man (do not want to call him father because he died for me that day) did to you.
My mum has no life, has been spend, it seems an old woman. My little brother has had to go to grands home. Everyone at school whisper when they see me and point the finger at me as the son of the child sexual predator.
Cursed the day I was born, cursed the day I meet you and invite you to my house, cursed the day this man did so much damage to you, damn the man who did it.
Life became too heavy for me, I can`t stand it.
Sorry to leave you and I hope you forgive me, please take care my beautiful friend of my little brother. I love you like the brother you has always been to me.
This is my way of punishing the damned who hurt you.
I will love you for ever.
Paul"
The evil that man did have cost the life of two of the most awesome, loving kids.
Ro left me speechless when he told me he forgive that man. Well, that was Ro. A forgiving heart.
I hope this letter have touch some evil heart and at least one kid out there will be safe.
Parents be on your kids.
Kids be aware.
Bullies stop!
It is so hard to have some tolerance and express some love to try to make this planet a better place to live?! Both are free. Why don`t start to give some?!
A hug for every one, specially any kid out there that have been sexually abused or bullied.
If you are reading this, you are a beautiful person.
luc
THANKS!!!! Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I want to thank every one of our followers and the persons who leave comments.
Please forgive me because most of the times I doesn`t thank you for them, but doesn`t mean I don`t read them and the emails as well, but I promise to do better because I feel bad when I don`t do it.
I want to leave the thanks in the same comment window and I don`t know how, but I will find out.
I`m thinking too in a contact thing but didn`t work last time, you won`t believe all the crap we get through it.
But I want you all know this, because all of you are beautiful persons for us. Not just the followers, but any single person who stops here.
The cbox will be disable for a while, but will be back.
Thanks to all of you.
Hugs,
luc
Please forgive me because most of the times I doesn`t thank you for them, but doesn`t mean I don`t read them and the emails as well, but I promise to do better because I feel bad when I don`t do it.
I want to leave the thanks in the same comment window and I don`t know how, but I will find out.
I`m thinking too in a contact thing but didn`t work last time, you won`t believe all the crap we get through it.
But I want you all know this, because all of you are beautiful persons for us. Not just the followers, but any single person who stops here.
The cbox will be disable for a while, but will be back.
Thanks to all of you.
Hugs,
luc
SOMETHING
Kids, when some one send you an email like this one, you know you got a friend and a big bro.
This one is from my beautiful big bro Cat.
Dear bro,
I just wanted to send you an email message because I really miss you and lil bro. Wow... just a day and it’s this bad. I’m sorry I didn’t catch you yesterday, I hope your doctor’s appointment went well and that you are doing ok. I read the chat history and saw that you were starting on some sleeping pills so I hope you get lots of rest, but especially “emotional rest”, as you’ve said. You need it!! I can’t wait for today, I hope it will all go well with the bible study and I hope everyone will be there! We’ll see how it goes . If by any chance you don’t feel up to it to be there I think we’ll all understand, we want what’s best for you and if your dad limited you to staying online for only 30 mins for a few weeks, we agree with him! We all love you very much and want what’s best for you! I love you a ton so I understand if you need the break (although I’ll miss you very much)... remember? love is freedom!
So, updates from vamp-land... There have been some weather changes here, it’s kinda crazy: warm, then suddenly cold. I turned off the heating one day then had to turn it on the next because my vamp butt was freezing . Anyway, it seems like London weather now, quite foggy, but I hope it’ll clear up! I’m going into full study mode again, tomorrow is my first exam so I have to study hard and take it with a good mark. I’ll let you know how it went, but for now everything seems okay! I feel very energetic and motivated so it’s been easy to study. Let me tell you one thing: you strived to make me spend 20 mins minimum every day with God for a month and that I would feel the changes... well, let me tell you that it’s only beed about 4 days! 4 days of reading the Bible and praying in the morning and before bed, 4 days of letting God into my life, spending as much time as I could with him every day and I feel the difference, bro! I really feel happier, more at peace, everything seems sooo much better!! So I wanted to thank you again and tell you that you were right! If the first 4 days were like this, then I can’t wait to see how it is after a month!! Thank you, from my heart!!
Please take care of yourself, I want my beautiful bro well, I don’t want you sad or fatigued! I love you so much, it hurts so much to see you suffer! I wish I could have the freedom to give you a hug, but seems the thousands of miles prevent me... Oh well, I’m sending you one through this mail now!
Take care bro,
Best wishes to you and everyone there,
I love you lots,
Your bro forever,
Cat
This one is from my beautiful big bro Cat.
Dear bro,
I just wanted to send you an email message because I really miss you and lil bro. Wow... just a day and it’s this bad. I’m sorry I didn’t catch you yesterday, I hope your doctor’s appointment went well and that you are doing ok. I read the chat history and saw that you were starting on some sleeping pills so I hope you get lots of rest, but especially “emotional rest”, as you’ve said. You need it!! I can’t wait for today, I hope it will all go well with the bible study and I hope everyone will be there! We’ll see how it goes . If by any chance you don’t feel up to it to be there I think we’ll all understand, we want what’s best for you and if your dad limited you to staying online for only 30 mins for a few weeks, we agree with him! We all love you very much and want what’s best for you! I love you a ton so I understand if you need the break (although I’ll miss you very much)... remember? love is freedom!
So, updates from vamp-land... There have been some weather changes here, it’s kinda crazy: warm, then suddenly cold. I turned off the heating one day then had to turn it on the next because my vamp butt was freezing . Anyway, it seems like London weather now, quite foggy, but I hope it’ll clear up! I’m going into full study mode again, tomorrow is my first exam so I have to study hard and take it with a good mark. I’ll let you know how it went, but for now everything seems okay! I feel very energetic and motivated so it’s been easy to study. Let me tell you one thing: you strived to make me spend 20 mins minimum every day with God for a month and that I would feel the changes... well, let me tell you that it’s only beed about 4 days! 4 days of reading the Bible and praying in the morning and before bed, 4 days of letting God into my life, spending as much time as I could with him every day and I feel the difference, bro! I really feel happier, more at peace, everything seems sooo much better!! So I wanted to thank you again and tell you that you were right! If the first 4 days were like this, then I can’t wait to see how it is after a month!! Thank you, from my heart!!
Please take care of yourself, I want my beautiful bro well, I don’t want you sad or fatigued! I love you so much, it hurts so much to see you suffer! I wish I could have the freedom to give you a hug, but seems the thousands of miles prevent me... Oh well, I’m sending you one through this mail now!
Take care bro,
Best wishes to you and everyone there,
I love you lots,
Your bro forever,
Cat
MISSING YOU (by Lucas) Thursday, January 13, 2011
Oh Ro.......just missing you.
I think will be better........but I`m scare it will be a looooong process.
Damm I`m so piss. I got this suddenly wrath moods.
Did you know I were able to save my home school year? That we got new jet skys? That Andres is doing sooo good. He is so beautiful Ro.
See? I miss to talk to you, but your hugs Ro........is what I miss the most. Well...tha`s not accurate, I miss everything.
I hate your computer desk and your empty chair. I ask your desk to be taking out but keep your chair. It was so messy to clean our bedroom and come back in it. I got a framed photo of you, but in my computer desk drawer.......I take it out some days, but is been more in than out........is kinda stupid, because the pain is inside and there loooots of other things that remember me of you........and all so beautiful that makes all harder and your absence so biiiiiiiiiiiig, omg.
How is for kids out there that have lost their parents, or one parent, or they whole families due to car accidents or to a whatever tragic situation?, and younger than me.........kinda nuke me down to my knees.....omg, how overwhelming have to be. And what about those sweet seniors that have been together for soooo many years......now is when I understand that a person can die out of sadness.......I thought before, like, that persons were weak, sorta.....hum....hard way for me to learn and understand.
I just miss you so baaaad......the need to see you, hug and kiss you, talk to you, heard you laughing, even crying, cuddle with you just to talk out at the terrace, just take my heart and assault me......damm Ro.......
I go out and cuddle with Andy now, and we look for your star on the sky, wondering which one is you........
I MISS YOU RO!
My heart goes out to any human being out there is missing some love one that have passed, specially kids. Feel I`m hugging you when sadness assault you and that ugly empty loneliness comes to visit you.
Please parents, open your eyes and be on your kids. Protect them.
Kids please, tell your parents or some body if you been abuse or are in the process to been abused. No body, NO ONE, have the right to abuse you or mistreat you.
A hug to every one of you.
Love you all.
luc
I think will be better........but I`m scare it will be a looooong process.
Damm I`m so piss. I got this suddenly wrath moods.
Did you know I were able to save my home school year? That we got new jet skys? That Andres is doing sooo good. He is so beautiful Ro.
See? I miss to talk to you, but your hugs Ro........is what I miss the most. Well...tha`s not accurate, I miss everything.
I hate your computer desk and your empty chair. I ask your desk to be taking out but keep your chair. It was so messy to clean our bedroom and come back in it. I got a framed photo of you, but in my computer desk drawer.......I take it out some days, but is been more in than out........is kinda stupid, because the pain is inside and there loooots of other things that remember me of you........and all so beautiful that makes all harder and your absence so biiiiiiiiiiiig, omg.
How is for kids out there that have lost their parents, or one parent, or they whole families due to car accidents or to a whatever tragic situation?, and younger than me.........kinda nuke me down to my knees.....omg, how overwhelming have to be. And what about those sweet seniors that have been together for soooo many years......now is when I understand that a person can die out of sadness.......I thought before, like, that persons were weak, sorta.....hum....hard way for me to learn and understand.
I just miss you so baaaad......the need to see you, hug and kiss you, talk to you, heard you laughing, even crying, cuddle with you just to talk out at the terrace, just take my heart and assault me......damm Ro.......
I go out and cuddle with Andy now, and we look for your star on the sky, wondering which one is you........
I MISS YOU RO!
My heart goes out to any human being out there is missing some love one that have passed, specially kids. Feel I`m hugging you when sadness assault you and that ugly empty loneliness comes to visit you.
Please parents, open your eyes and be on your kids. Protect them.
Kids please, tell your parents or some body if you been abuse or are in the process to been abused. No body, NO ONE, have the right to abuse you or mistreat you.
A hug to every one of you.
Love you all.
luc
MEMORIAL (by Andy) Sunday, January 9, 2011
Today was Rob`s Memorial Service at our church.
It was the most moving memorial I ever be part of.
Uncle Robert speak and I can`t stop my tears.
Then they call Luc, and it was incredible. But Luc say that he can`t say nothing without Andres, Steve and me with him, because it wasn`t him, but we. My Luc is awesome.
Then 127 gay kids pass all together and one of them speak thanking Rob for his love. They call Luc and give him a plaque in Rob`s memory.
Luc can`t go and just call for his dad, uncle Robert went to him and hug him and then uncle Lucas join them and is when he was able to finish.
It was a sad and happy memorial.
Rob, we will see you again to stay together for eternity.
I will always remember you.
I will always love you.
Andy
It was the most moving memorial I ever be part of.
Uncle Robert speak and I can`t stop my tears.
Then they call Luc, and it was incredible. But Luc say that he can`t say nothing without Andres, Steve and me with him, because it wasn`t him, but we. My Luc is awesome.
Then 127 gay kids pass all together and one of them speak thanking Rob for his love. They call Luc and give him a plaque in Rob`s memory.
Luc can`t go and just call for his dad, uncle Robert went to him and hug him and then uncle Lucas join them and is when he was able to finish.
It was a sad and happy memorial.
Rob, we will see you again to stay together for eternity.
I will always remember you.
I will always love you.
Andy
TO A FRIEND (by Lucas)
I want to write this one for you, cus you touch my soul. You have that so tender touch to tell me always the right words at the right moment. My heart feels your heart and my heart just feel love, the kind of love that comes from God.
I admire you, I look out for you, I would like to be like you when become your age. Your the big brother I never have. I can`t say now that I never have one.
Your the brother I feel safe in his arms. The brother I can sleep with my head resting on your chest. The brother I can cry on your shoulder. The one I feel free to kiss and hug any time I need to, knowing I will be welcome and comfort.
I`m so proud to have you. To see you studying in college. To see you growing in God`s knowledge. To see you spreading love among your family and friends. Dealing in the situation with your parents like the man you are. Always asking for prayers when to make important decisions in your life. Knowing that you are giving God the place He wants in your heart. Growing in faith.
We are so far. Your in the other extreme of the planet, so far but so close; close cus I always have you in my heart.
You are the brother that when I see or learn something new, just think in my heart "I wish so much you`ll be here with me now".
You have fill my life and heart with happiness. With love.
Your the one I know I can call or email any time, any day and I will be safe and find comfort.
You are so awesome.
You are so beautiful.
I want the world to know I got a big brother.
To know that I love you with my whole heart and always will.
I want every kid in this world to have you. I know they will be loved and safe with you.
I want the universe to know, that I have a big brother and his name is Catalin.
You are my big brother Cat.
I love you.
luc
I admire you, I look out for you, I would like to be like you when become your age. Your the big brother I never have. I can`t say now that I never have one.
Your the brother I feel safe in his arms. The brother I can sleep with my head resting on your chest. The brother I can cry on your shoulder. The one I feel free to kiss and hug any time I need to, knowing I will be welcome and comfort.
I`m so proud to have you. To see you studying in college. To see you growing in God`s knowledge. To see you spreading love among your family and friends. Dealing in the situation with your parents like the man you are. Always asking for prayers when to make important decisions in your life. Knowing that you are giving God the place He wants in your heart. Growing in faith.
We are so far. Your in the other extreme of the planet, so far but so close; close cus I always have you in my heart.
You are the brother that when I see or learn something new, just think in my heart "I wish so much you`ll be here with me now".
You have fill my life and heart with happiness. With love.
Your the one I know I can call or email any time, any day and I will be safe and find comfort.
You are so awesome.
You are so beautiful.
I want the world to know I got a big brother.
To know that I love you with my whole heart and always will.
I want every kid in this world to have you. I know they will be loved and safe with you.
I want the universe to know, that I have a big brother and his name is Catalin.
You are my big brother Cat.
I love you.
luc
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