That`s what i am inside, a wrath volcano.
I`m SO mad at the guy to hurt my bro.
Every time i see him crying `cus is so painful for him to do #2, every time he grabs me by my pajama shirt or hug my by my wrist to mitigate he`s pain, every time i see his chest full of hematomas, every time i see the tube in his belly, every time i see his parents and mine crying, every time i see how skinny he is, every time he tells me crying and w/his face just submerge in my chest "i don`t know for how long i`ll be able to take this", every time i remember that the pain doing #2, comes mostly from emotional issues that don`t allow him to loose some muscles he need to release fecal residue, every time he express to me his suffering or i see it in his eyes, is like if some body is stabbing me in the heart and is when i feel inside me all this wrath.
I`m prying so much to God to give me a heart like the want u have rob, `cus this wrath i feel is poison to my soul and i don`t want to feel it no more. I want to be able to forgive the way you do, just give me time, I know God will help me to doit, `cus i`m not able to doit by my self, but, i don`t know when i`ll be able to forgive him.
One good thing is that the pneumonia is gone, i`m happy today `cus that, but, his body need to get stronger, hi needs to gain weight in order to start the hapatitis b treatment, i`m just praying every second to God to be merciful and allow him to made it.
He`s still in icu, i don`t see the day that he came strong enough to be release from icu, i`m hopeful that w/the the pneumonia gone, he will start improving.
I`m just here, expending time w/him and doing homework.
Today i was kind of interview for a psychologist for kids, by rob`s dad suggestion, i guess they`re all checking on my. I don`t know what he says to rob`s parents and my parents, i just saw them talking "adults things", the magic phrase my parents use when they don`t want me to listen what they`re talking about, like if i were a little kid, rrrrrrr.
I hope God listen our prayers and this doesn`t take too long, dunno how rob`s gonna made it.
I just don`t want my little friend to died, but he`s a fighter, i know this one.
Keep us in your prayers, please. That`s the BEST help we need now.
Thanks for ur emails and good wishes.
Hugs for every one of you, specially the kids.
Be safe out there, tell some body if ur being abuse.
We love u all.
luc
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