Our parents are friends w/they`re parents and talk to us about them. They`re follow our blog and know about ro. They ask their parents to spent some time w/us and we start doing webcam w/them for some time now. They`re in our sunday school at our church and our old school. Ro and i decide to invite them to spend the weekend and after talk w/our parents we`re granted, but what happen during this time since friday is just awesome. The first night we barely sleep `cus they just can`t stop asking ro all sort if things `bout everything that happen to him, ro answer all their questions and they some time just were hugging ro, but start the physical contact showing affection was tense `cus they were happy to accept it but we notice a so big reserve to give it, well ro is pretty open kid and just talk straight to them " i one to know why you guys don`t hug me or kiss me every time you feel like it? be honest w/me and please, explain to me, `cus i`ve been notice this and is creating tension on me", omg, they all look to each others w/teary eyes and any one want to start, then ro went asking one by one and that way was easier, and what we heard just crush us, basically they all where afraid of our reaction to express love, they were afraid we think they were doing it `cus some gay attraction, and after they finish ro told them "i want every one of you to give cas and me a tight hug and a kiss, and every time you feel like to hug, or kiss, or lean on us, or hold our hands, your going to feel free to doit now on, specially you two Andy and Justin, `cus is not a secret between us that you`re gay boys, but i want you to understand that what happen to me wasn`t cause it for a gay man but for a very evil and sick person and we never be ashame to hang out w/any of you, and we don`t care `bout you guys been gay or not `cuz your`re our friends and we love you. Another thing is that don`t be scare if for the physical contact you guys have an erection, just give it time if it happen `cuz the same way went up it will goes down, we don`t going to think nothing wrong `bout any of you for this reason, but at the same time we got our boundaries and please, don`t go over them, never try to touch us with other intentions `cuz won`t be kool. Cas and i talk openly `bout anything, i love to seat in cas lap and some times happened, i feel he got and erection and i just talk to him `bout it cuz i felt he was ashamed. I just told him, listen cas you got two choices here, first you just take a knife and cut it out from your body, second you just move it aside or just do nothing cuz it will goes down and don`t feel ashamed cuz the third option won`t gonna happen, he ask me that what was the third option, i told him that the third option was that i have to stop seating on his lap and stop sleeping w/him in the same bed. We just laugh a lot `bout this, cuz when happen he just laugh and tell me "yeah, yeah i know `bout the two options". Another thing is that don`t be afraid to be affectionate with each other, love is a beautiful thing when is pure and not a fake looking for something else", this kids where all red faces and at the same time tears start to roll down their faces, they don`t want to rise their heads to look at us and ro and i look at each other, ro just start to kinda say sorry if he sound rude but Andy the younger just jump on ro, yeah, jump on ro`s lap, and told him "sssshh, stop, and i think i`m talking for every one here, we just so happy, i`m weeping because i love you so much and i want to tell you this and hug you and kiss you for so long, but i was so afraid to doit, so afraid that you may won`t talk to me again, but the best thing is that you understand, you doesn`t know how bless we`ve been spending this weekend with you two, you guys are so awesome, we talk about all this all ready but didn`t know how to express it to you and any one got the balls to be the one who say it, we being praying about to find friends like you two, we talk about how strong feels just to see the loving way you two treat each other, we know, but is hard to practice specially when people tag you as a gay, you become to be like a pest, feels so awful, sad and ugly inside, but we all want a piece of this", O M G, ro didn`t let him finish, ro just put his finger on Andy`s lips and hug him and kiss him like a fifty times, those two kids were in a tight hug weeping openly and Andy just sobbing and telling to ro "i love you so much for a long time, thank you for be like this, thank you for be my friend, i was dreaming to being hugging you like this for a long time, you doesn`t know how good feels to hug you and tell you all this, thank you ro" i was just all teary eyes and the kids just lift ro from the chair and told me "come here luc" and just hug us and say to us talking at the same time, "Andy is the youngest and is the one to have the balls to say it, we just want to thank you, is so kool to feel free to hug and kiss a friend with out fear, you gays teach us a so big other beautiful and strong world, thank you, you doesn`t know how good is to feel free to talk about any thing you want, we feel a freedom we haven`t experience before, omg, we thank God so much for this", dunno, but this is a new dimension for me, is another step ahead in ro`s world, this things hit me so deep and strong, that moments like this just take my breath away, my heart pumps fast and hard, is just so much joy and so strong love that kinda i`m not able to hold it inside my chest and i feel that my chest is going to explode, and over all this, after they kiss me and hug me and don`t want to let go of me, like to kill me, they turn to me and Andy told me "we plan to come this weekend to see with our eyes if all this was as good as you guys post, but we learn that is so good you have to be here to experience it, with the purpose to learn and have friends like you and ro, don`t think this is a crazy thing, we`ve been praying together about this in my home for about 3 weeks and we want you to know this, and because i become to be the spoken person here we got a question for you, would you be there for us as you have been there for ro to teach us how to be a real friend like you are? Are you want to be real friend with us?" (i just stop for `bout 30 mins when i was posting this one `cuz is too much for me and i have to take some water, i`m back), i just have to seat and told them "you guys got this wrong, i`m just a kid like you guys, the teacher here is ro not me!! i`m the want to is asking would you guys want to be friends? would you give me this privilege, please?" i was feeling to say something else that i don`t even remember but they didn`t let me finish, Andy told me "no luc, you got this wrong, we`re the ones to thank God for this privilege, we`re the ones who want to enjoy your so beautiful, awesome heart and want to learn in the process as well, we just love you luc, we were just afraid to tell you too", i just cover my face w/my hands and i don`t know how, was able to say " yes guys, i want to be friends w/you all and i love you all so very much", Andy is a such beautiful, shy, tender, caring kid, he just seat on my lap and hug me so tight and tender and the others kids as well, and they just ask me not to cry no more, and i just told them "i`m trying guys, but you`ll learn that some times the power of love is so strong that overpower you and you just not able to stop", ro stand up and say "cas? i need you to hug me please", the kids let me go and i went to ro and hug him so tight that ro say "cas, to hug me not to kill me", we all laugh and then ro just grab my head and kiss my eyes and we were touching our foreheads and noses and he told me "cas, thank you, i love you so much cas, w/my life cas", and just start to sob softly and rest his head on my shoulders, the kids were just enjoying every drop of everything and we went to bed `cus was 5:00AM saturday.
We spend Saturday at the beach, and guess what, oh was so good, we all get naked and enjoy the beach, even ro, then ro wants to go farther inside the water and we all were holding him, i was pretty nerves but he`s a good swimmer and he was floating pretty kool, but when a big wave came i saw the desperation on his eyes `cus he knows it will going to hit him good, i shout the kids and we all just went for ro, he was ok but we have to lift him real quick and hold him to go over the other waive, and try to get close enough to the shore in order to take him safe out of the water, was a pretty tense moment and he just hug me tight and told in my ear "oh s**t cas, that was scary, thnxs" and we just laugh, then we decided to take turns to be seating w/him on the sand but in the water and everything went good `till we saw ALL our parents calling us w/the lunch ready and cameras and video cameras just waiting for us to get out of the water, omg, we start to plea from the water to please don`t to do this, to go away `till we get our shorts, but then everything was funnier for all of them, well, we`re starving and i told all the kids "ok, i`ll go out and grab all the towels and bring them to you all", and was a deal, i just rush out of the water and all the adults were laughing and having a good time w/us, and guess what, when i get to the spot where we leave our towels and clothes it was nothing there, they got everything, omg, i want to die rit there, then my dad went like yuhuuu, rit here luc, and i have to go to the group and all the parents just hugging me and saying hi, then i wear my baggys and ask for ro`s towel `cus the water was kinda cold for him, but mr robert told me "luc, just help him out to get here and call the others as well", lol, that was bad, when the kids saw what happened to me they just start to came out of the water and helping ro to get to the group to get their clothes, it was lots of fun, lots of food, lots of happiness and lots of love, i was so happy to tears seeing ro laughing and that spark in his eyes coming back, he got me in that one and just stand up w/Andy`s help and walk to me, we just hug laughing and tears of joy rolling down, all the kids just went, YEEEAH!!! and become a 6 kids massive hug, omg, ALL our parents were teary eyes, just taking pictures and video of all this. My spirit was in a sublime state of joy, i was just thanking God for His mercy.
We went back to the house `cus ro was tired and then went back to the beach at night for a bone fire, we took a nice nap, Andy just love ro and we all respect that, he was the first to lay down by ro`s side on bed and every one of us just follow, we were just laughing and scrolling in bed `till every one was on bed, then ro start a pray thanking God for all the good, the new friends, His mercy and grace on us, the so beautiful day at the beach and when he finish we just start to going one over another to reach ro and give him a nice hug. It was a beautiful day.
What happen in the bone fire and today, will be for ro to post.
Kids out there be careful.
hugs for every one,
luc
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