I check the emails this morning and fund 3 emails that really made me weep.
There are a group of people that set up a chat room for we to talk and share and is been just an amazing experience.
Few of them (almost all) are old guys and i call them fossils, omg, they`re so much fun and wise, and they`ve been just offering me support and a LOT of love. Few of them have a different sexual orientation than mine, but that have been helping me so much to learn bout things i didn`t know and i want to know bout gay people cus we have few gay boys among our friends and i want to be able to understand in order not to get confuse and feel comfy around them and i really don`t understand the phobic others have bout them, they`re responsible, caring, for real, sincere, honest and so respectful. Any of them has had ever ask me for a naked pic or something like it and i learn that is a BIG difference in been gay and been a pervert. Not even a word out of order, not even a simple one that mean nothing for a lot of people, they`re so educated, i`m the one that have a tantrum 2 days ago and i guess it was for all the pressure i`ve been through and they don`t even allow me to apologize, they just help me out to understand the why, omg, i`m still think bout it and feel so ashamed. Harry, Rhys, Joe, Oxu, Cat, Pete. I want the world to know how good you are and how much you all been helping me. Thanks, i love you from my heart, is yours.
Last night my dad put me on the phone w/ro`s doctor and he told me "Lucas, i don`t know what your doing but keep doing it cus ro have had gain 5 pounds, he`s on 70 pounds now", omg, i was just jumping around, i`m just so happy.
Every time i go to the hospital ro`s dad knows it cus ro start a little smile, the machines show increase of activity in his whole body and i didn`t know till Mr. Mentzy (who is a doctor) told me bout it. Ro knows and this is deep for me. He just heard my voice and smile in his sleep and when i hold his hand he squeeze lightly.
I talk to him bout all the things like if he was awake and i hug him and kiss him and he just give me that light smile like letting me know he`s fine. Dunno but ro and i are tight for ever, our hearts are wrap as one and this is so beautiful that i really have no words to describe it. I was afraid to share this cus is been really amazing for me and i didn`t understand bout this, but know i feel better bout it.
Ro`s mum is getting better by the day, she even went to the hospital w/me today and looks so beautiful, well, she is beautiful, i love her like my mum. She`s getting stronger and yesterday ro`s parents and my parents went out for dinner. I`m just happy. I`m just missing my other half a lot, every second of the day. I`m just missing you my beautiful friend, please come back home ro.
Kids just give love and be happy.
Take care out there please.
Parents please open your eyes and try to understand us.
We need of your time. We need your hugs and kisses so bad. Yes is ok for you to give us food, education and a roof over our heads, but hug and kiss us, cus if not will be missing that for the rest of our lives and my be won`t be able to pass it to your grand sons.
I just love you all.
hugs,
luc
P.S. Andy little buddy, i have to add this cus you are the first close beautiful gay boy friend i ever had and i`m so proud of that. You have been teaching me of a new world i didn`t know about and i don`t regret this new knowledge at all. Your heart is an open book and i`m so grateful of you cus you had helped me out to understand boys your sexual orientation. I will love you for ever Andy.
luc
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