I don`t even know how to start. I want to say so many things, bad things, the worst things, to Andres dad. I`m not suppose to hate him but I feel I do. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
We always took a shower before bed, last night I notice Andres shaking when Cas and I start getting ready for our shower, we`ve been told about this situation and were trying to make it look as normal as it is, because is a normal thing in life to get naked to take showers, but, for my sweet little brother is not like that. When Cas were naked and i was starting to, Andres walk to me and grab my hand pulling me out of the bedroom to the living room to see the Christmas tree. We seat and snuggle for a while until i felt all his tears dropping on my forearm, I didn`t want to ask him because I want to wait his time for him to start telling me anything he wants to. I just tight, pull him closer to me and then he ask me "Robert, can I tell you anything and you will love me any aways?", I told him "There is anything in this world that is going to make me stop loving you for ever, your the most beautiful little brother I ever had, I`m so happy to have you, you just make me happy, why do you ask me that?", and he answer me "Because I`m pretty ugly and my dad did lots of things to me, then I was thinking to tell you now and no later, that way is better, because I want to be sure if you will love me, because I want to go back to Spain if you won`t". And then he start telling me. (is 8:36 AM and I have to stop cuz I need to compose my self before continue)
I just want to say this part because Andres talk to me for about 3 hours. He ask me to tell Cas and my Dad to come too, because he wants them to listen, he wants to know if we will love him to be sure he will stay with us. I call them and he seat in another chair kinda separate from us and with his head down and trembling voice he start.
He told us how his dad hit him, starved him, tight him to a tree for days at a time naked. How his dad whip him with a belt and rape him every time he came to the house drunk, calling him ugly and that he will never by useful for nothing good besides to be and slut male, blaming on him that his mum goes away. How his dad introduce in his anus objects and leaving him tight to the tree with them inside, how cold he gets at night and how good he feels here because is not cold, because the cold whether bring memories to him. How lucky he was that his mum brother pass by one day and fund him unconscious with a piece of wood in his butt and call the police and paramedics. Well, that is a little part of what he told us.
When he finish, he keep his head down and ask us "Are you love me still? Am I will be allow to stay?". My Dad, Cas and I were unable to talk. During the process I try several times to go and just hug him, but Dad always stop me, letting me know to allow him to finish. But when he finish, Cas and I just walk to him, Cas lift him on his arms and both hug him and cry, loud, pretty loud, out of love, pity, anger and everything together. I don`t know how many times we kiss him. Then Dad join us and told him "Son, we love you here, you are safe here, no body will ever hurt you, we never will, I want you to be my son and to stay with us. Would you like it Andres?", and then the miracle happened. Andres, for the first time in abut 5 years, hug an adult male, hug my Dad, extend his arms to reach him and my Dad took him in his arms, Andres kiss him and told him "Thank you Dad" and my dad just explode sobbing, the 3erd time i see my Dad crying in my life.
We went upstairs and my Dad kiss him good night, he just say "good night..........dad". I told him that we were to take a shower and if he wants to take it with us or take it by him self, that we will be in the bathroom seating in the chair until he finish. We were naked waiting for him seating in a sofa and he walk to us but stop looking at our nakedness, we motion with our hands for him to get closer meanwhile I was telling him "Is ok Andres, we are your brothers, done`t be afraid", he get close between us and place an arm in Cas and I necks, look to each other faces and ask us "You will never hurt me, right? Promise?", this kind of questions, in this kind of situations, coming from Andres and in the way he ask, take a process to answer. After you control your self for not to start to cry, take few seconds to compose your self and your brain and deal with the knot in you throat, then you are able to answer him. We told him that we never, ever, will hurt him and that we swear on our lives that we won`t allow no body to hurt him again. He just let couple of tears drop from his eyes and kiss our cheeks, then ask me to help him to undress and we head for the bathroom. He was just standing there and we took him for each hand and get in the tube and wash him, rinse him, get playful with him trying for him to stop shaking, wash our self quickly and I dry him. We got for him a nice blue pj with all kind of birds on it, because he loves birds, then we pray and lay down with him in the middle to watch one of the dvd`s we have about nature, he loves animals and the outdoors, and he seat on the bed, give us a kiss and just told us "Thank you". We didn`t last long up, but i remember pulling him to me to hug him and telling him to relax that he was safe with us, that i would like to hug him every night to sleep and cas too, he just look at me and kiss me, cuddle and we were out. This morning when I open my eyes he was wrap with cas and I thought to my self "Welcome home little brother, your in the best arms ever right now". Yeah, i think he was, he was in cas arms, i don`t see better ones.
Andres:
Bienvenido seas a nuestro hogar.
Tu has venido a nuestras vidas llenandolas the felicidad.
Te prometemos amarte con todo nuestro corazon.
Te juramos por nuestras vidas, que no permitiremos a nadie maltratarte nunca mas.
Aqui estas seguro por siempre.
Te amamos.
Tus hermanos,
Roberto y Lucas.
Is inconceivable for me that an adult hurt a kid.
I post this for you kids.
For you parents.
Adults, we are kids and expect from you all, love, respect, to take care of, not to be bully, not to be mistreated, not to be abused, not to be hungry, not to be naked, not to be sick and without medical care. Stop expending all that money in wars and hate. Goverments of this planet, What are you all thinking? What are you all going to do with us?, Are we disposables?, You produce us and bring us to life to mistreat us?,
Do you all think that you will never going to confront our Creator and will have to answer Him for your actions? Well, you will. That you believe it or not, will not change the fact, that will happen.
Kids take care out there. Be careful. Be smarts. Don`t allow no body to abuse you. Tell some body, please.
A hug and a kiss for all the kids out there, specially the ones that be sexually abused.
I love you.
Hugs to every one.
rob
No comments:
Post a Comment