WOW

WOW....i didn`t know luc have been messing in my blog, but he`s allow.
Now u know why i love this kid w/my life, don`t u?
Yes, i`m that scare kid he`s describing.
Yes, i was getting panic attacks so bad my dad has to pick us up.
Yes, i hold he`s hand before when out w/him.
Yes, i hold he`s pants or his shirt when out.
Yes, i wake up in the middle of the nit, crying out loud, all mess up, and as soon i heard his voice i just hold on to him w/desperation, `cuz his love made me feel safe.
Yes, he help me to pee and do #2, espacially #2, cuz is a nightmare for me.
Yes, i just grab him in pain, `cuz help me out.
No, i didn`t know, he was going to the tree house to cry and pray asking God for strength and wisdom, in order to help me out.
No, i didn`t know my situation was affecting him so much.
Yes, i cry a lot and sometimes for simples things.
Yes, i`m crying rit know and typing `cuz didn`t know that God`s love me this much, giving me something i think i don`t deserve and i have no words to describe, and that is the love of my friend Lucas, i don`t know what to do rit now w/all those good words and feelings he`s been expressing here, omg, i`m just shaking and feeling chills in my back, cas ......u r hugging my rit now while i`m typing, ......i didn`t know half of the privilege God`s has giving me, allowing u in my life, ur the most awesome, kind, tender, loving, loyal and every good word that exist to describe a friend, u more than that, know on i`ll be talking `bout my big bro Lucas, ur the bro i never have.....yes.....ur the bro i`ve being wishing and asking my parents to give me, i got u in front of my eyes and wasn`t realizing it!!!!!!!!!, .....God just answer my prayers and i didn`t know `cuz someone like u.....just from God can come.......ur the bro i`ve being waiting all my life!!!!!!!!omg, my skin is like chicken.........cas.....i love u w/my life,
omg............i `m not able to type no more rit now
Posted by robert