Hard to deal w/situations and emotions, fears, but is life.
Then, is not good when your not able to grow and get the knowledge to deal your self with whatever comes to you, and when there is no dad or mum or friends or a group or some body, please. And worst when you got mum and dad, family and friends but they don`t understand, and you become to experience the worst of the loneliness, the one that you are alone around a lot of people.
But then life doesn`t stop to wait for for you and you grow uneven and this affect your life and others lives.
What to do? Where to go for help? Some times is even hard to accept is something wrong, to begin with. And scary when your young and don`t know where to go, but knowing is something wrong and just a pile of thoughts in your head, that made you all confuse, and you can see how bad the results are been in others and your world came dark and your mind a fog and you start to die inside and start existing, and stop living.
But suddenly, God remembers you and you start to see a very, very little light at the end of the tunnel, and in your darkness you feel hands to hold yours, weak hands and a weak and breaking voice, but with a so tender and loving tone telling you, "hi Andy, my name is Robert, nice to meet you", and pull you into he`s heart and is so powerful that you start to gasping for air, you think your heart going to stop, your shaking afraid that won`t last for long because, your been rejeceted for all the world around you and you believe in no body, you don`t want to give your heart again because hurt so much and you just pray to God that this time you don`t be turn down again, because God, i will not able to take it once again. And you just cry all night resting your head on his chest and hugging him because your life depend on it, and you just dream, just beautiful dreams and have no nightmares and you don`t remember since where, and he hug you naked and tell you "i`m not afraid of you, i love you", and you surrender, because is just love, and he just caress your heart when he say it, and you know if for real this time.
Your heart sing, your spirit lift high to the skies, your wings grow strongers allowing you to go far, far away, you know you find a friend for ever and that`s you Robert Mentzy, my heart is yours, my soul my self, thanks for be my friend.
My name is Andy Williams, i`m 13yrs. old and i`m gay.
Love you Robert.
Hope that every kid gay or not, find a friend like him.
2 comments:
Hi Andy
My heart goes out to you on this post, because it took me from your life into Roberts life where nothing else mattered. It gave you the long awaited friendship that turned your life around, and I can only imagine what it meant to Robert to have you there at his side. I would love to see these post in a book one day, the whole life of Robert would make for compulsive reading just as it is wrtten here, no editing, just the way it was.
Thank you Andy, I enjoyed your post very much.
Thanks Vic. Luc and I don`t like to go back reading because is still to painful, but I will love Rob for ever.
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