awful

omg...omg
i`m crying and shaking so baaaad,
i want my dad w/me rit now,
i went to the toilet w/luc`s help, i notice he was trying to cover the bathroom mirror w/his body, and then i find out why.
i got 2 black dunnats around my eyes, my eyes are in the back of my head, like at the end of a tunnel, i have a bright green eyes but they have no color. I`m not a tall kid, kinda short, but what i saw back in the mirror is not me, it was an skeleton, omg, w/skin on it. I got no flesh, just skin. My chest is just rips, i got no stomach, just and empty space there, my chest is full of purple hematomas, my arms looks like if i`m a heroine addict, a yunky, my legs have hematomas too, in the only place i got some flesh is in my butts chicks, omg, and my butt chicks are full of round hematomas the size of a quater coin, my pee is so swelling that looks like a big purple meat ball. I wasn`t even able to see my testicles, i have no legs, just two tooth picks, i just set in the bathroom floor `cuz i kinda faint and luc`s grab me and hug me and told me "now u know why i didn`t want u to come to the bathroom at all, but u`ll be fine, yes is ugly, but u can`t give up, if God decides to take u, will be u fighting, and me at your side holding u", and we`re here still crying together,omg, i`m a monster, i need no make up to be in a horror movie, i can`t believe what i was seeing, i just stood there `til luc`s grab me and told me what he told me. omg, i`m just asking my self right now, how in the world i`m gonna make it? there is not enough time for my body to get stronger in order to support the antibiotics i need to fight my pneumonia and the hepatitis B, the count of white globules in my blood, is so low, that, that is the reason, my doctor haven`t start all ready w/the hepatitis B treatment and i`m taken antibiotics all ready for the pneumonia, how my body is gonna made it? antibiotics kills the white globules in the blood, i need my white globules, if i don`t have them i died, and if i don`t take the antibiotics, the pneumonia will kill me, or the hepatitis B. How i`m gonna make it? How? Is just in front of my eyes. I don`t have to be a NASA rocket scientific to understand my situation. Is just common sense. How this skeleton is gonna survive? omg, i`m getting dizzy. I got to lay down. This is too much, i`m just 13...........just 13.
Posted by robert