Andres

A beautiful 12 yo kid from Spain that was abuse for his dad for few years.
Is here to celebrate with us the first Christmas in his life and on the 27 his first birthday party.
He is my baby brother. We adopt him and will be official march next year. I have 2 brothers now. I always ask for one but God give me 2, i`m so happy to have him here. He is so shy and scare, fragile like a little bird, so big, beautiful, green but sad eyes. I meet him through webcam and he hit me straight in the heart. He doesn`t allow to be touch for no body but cas and me. When he get home from the airport and run to hug me, it was like if a fright train hit me, he kinda pass to me at touch in that exact moment all his pain.
He is been staring at me straight in the eyes, kinda searching deep in me i don`t know what. I just say to him "yes is me, doesn`t bother me that you hug me or kiss me or touch my or seat in my lap or sleep in my bed or play with me, all i have is yours, i`m yours, your my little brother and i love you so much". His eyes get full of tears that i dry from him. He grab my face between his hands and goes with his index finger all around, my eyebrows, nose, eyes, lips, then he dry my tears too, cuz just move me his tenderness, pureness, loving care manners, craving for love, but what kills me are his insecurities and sadness. He have a beautiful long blond hair and just tight the closeness, resting his head on my shoulder or chest, so quite, kinda absorbing like an sponge, absorbing love, and i will give him all he wants, oh yes i will.
My therapist will see him tomorrow to follow up. Thanks God we find a good therapist that speak Spanish, cuz Andres doesn`t speak English.
I know my mum is happy for me. I know she loves Andres too.
I guess that the same way we humans have no limits to do good, we doesn`t have to do evil too, cuz i can not understand how a dad hurt his own flesh and blood the way Andres dad did.
How?
HOW?
I ask God for forgiveness today, cuz i spend like an hour thinking the ways in how to kill Andres dad.
The hard part is that i`m suppose to hate what he did and love him as a human being he is, but you know what?, i`ll get back to you later in this one.
Please, pray God to give me wisdom to deal with Andres.

Kids out there, my God protect you all and never take from us His Grace and Mercy.
A hug for every one of you.
Love you all,
rob


P.S. A 17yo boy contact us. His name is Billy Holman. His been abuse and understand about pain and all the package that comes with abuse. He have a big heart and start a blog. You will find the link under Billy`s blog, on the right side. Pass and give him a visit. You will find a loving care heart there.