YEAH, STILL UP (by Lucas)

I`m suppose to be in bed all ready but I have to go with my Dad later on today to run couple of errands that included things I have to do when meet 16 years old and be part of a very important Ceremony in which all my little bros, and their parents will be present. These things are very important for me because are Official Introductions of my person to assume Official Duties. I`m not sleepy at all just very anxious.

Andy said something in one of his last post that have made me think "God have been blessing me beyond my comprehension." and I can say the same. I`m looking back and thinking how blessed I`ve been for have the parents and family God have given me and lately Maria. I`m in love and scare. I think I have to go slow because I don`t want to do anything that would hurt her. She tingles everything I am as a male. She fills me up completely and over all, she loves God. This is love but a different kind I guess. Is as intense and beautiful as the one I feel for my parents, little bros, families, friends and over all God, but this is something else and got me and got me BAD. God have mercy on me because I want to eat that girl and I`m not a cannibal.

Ro was hurt and die due to what happened to him. Is been hard on me, I thought it will kill me too. God have blessing me and helping me every second and is the reason I`m still here and moving forward. There are lots of kids that where going through lots more than what I have been going through, without having all the blessings I have and have survived. I think that going through hard times have to do besides God with what that little human being is made of too and this fact have been an inspiration for me, have helped me to move forward.
There is a kid that is autistic, his name is James Hobley. He went to the same event Ronan Parke went but didn`t made it. Well, for me he did made it. The effort with even his challenged status, the courage, the fact he believe in him self and even scare jump and went for it, HE TRIED.
I wish from my heart that this will serve as a motivation for lots of kids.

And this one is a tribute someone made for him.

AND WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THIS ONE? I am crying like a baby because I have SO MANY things to be grateful for and I know I haven`t lots of times and I`m typing, crying and asking God to remember that I`m just a human being and to forgive me for have lots of things in front of my eyes and be so blind. I don`t feel I have been grateful enough for what He have given me.

I will work in be more grateful to God. Because Him I`m moving forward. I have challenges ahead and I`ll start to assume lots of them tomorrow. I`m moving forward and doesn`t know how much time I`ll have for blogging. Andy will be here though.

Please kids, please, believe in your selves.
Never give up.
Don`t allow NO body to abuse you.
Believe in God because He exist and is for real.
Be grateful of what you got and don`t focus in what you doesn`t have.
Parents be on your kids.

With love,

Luc