Luc just storm in the bedroom from the Academy, took a shower, change his uniform for another one, erased all our faces with kisses and told us "I see you all beautiful later, about 10PM. Call me any time and change those faces because I`m almost crying. Help me the same way you all been doing and don`t think is easy for me just to storm in and out without get no fun. What I want right now is snuggle with you all and do what we do every day. So, pllzz?" We hugged him trying to smile and he rush out.
OMG! This is so silly. I can`t believe we are feeling like this. We are happy because he is moving on but at the same time we miss him. He is alive and well, so well. Why to feel like this? I don`t understand. I have to talk to my Dad and try to change this in behalf of all of us the little ones.
This is the new Luc now and we have to be happy and grateful to God instead to be all down because he is not with us. I guess we are so protective with him that now is hard to let him go. But let him go where? He is here and we will see him in couple of hours. He have lots of homework to do and will have to do it before going to bed. I was wanting and praying so much for him to start and now I`m kinda piss he is doing it. I really don`t understand my self some times. I will take few minutes to put my head together is 5:33PM now.
Julian.- I went to my favorite spot down in the property and few minutes later I heard some body behind me, it was Julian. He saw me tearing down and hugged me and I explode crying. Him "Awww Andy, no. I`m happy, so happy because he is growing. Yes I want to be with him too and spend time. I didn`t know you can love people so quick and deep as Emi and I love you all. I understand exactly what you are feeling and is ok but you have to let go this feeling because is an unnecessary weight. Andy? You are so loving care and tender and I love you so much. I`m here for you any time, I want you to know that. When you feel like this now on I would love for you just to come to me. We will do home work together, take a walk, play videos, watch a movie and just be together. Deal Andy McDuck?" Me laughing and hugging him "Deal". Him "We have to be here for him Andy. Now more than ever. He is alive and well. Lets thanks God because he is moving forward. Common, lets go inside, we are the older and have to be there for the little ones. Are you with me?" Me "Yes I am. I love you Julian, thank you, thank you so very much."
I got another incredible big bro and I`m all weeping because I miss Luc. Oh God I love Julian. I got another big bro just in front of my eyes and instead to be so happy and grateful, I was pitying my self. Common Andy. What in the world are you doing? UHG I`m not an easy thing to understand, believe me. I don`t understand my self. Yes, I`m happy Luc is moving on and I`m so grateful I got four bros with me. I will be here for him instead of being a so weeping boy. He is expecting for me to be here for him and my other bros. Thanks God for Julian, he just step in as the big bro he is. I have lots of work to do with my insecurities.
I want the world to know I really have another big bro.
Is you Julian and I love you.
Thank you!!
Is my pray that God provide a brother for any kid out there needing one.
Be careful out there kids.
Let no one to abuse you.
With love,
Andy
3 comments:
Andy
The reason you guys miss Luc is because none of you had to endure being apart like this before, and understandably his absence throbs like a sore thumb. What is the best way to tackle this, well for a start you guys are not alone for long so do something interesting while he is away. Julian seems to understand this better so follow his example, and in next to no time you'll have the confidence to handle your insecurities.
Have a nice day, and a big hug to you all.
Andy,
It is hard when we are so close to someone then life moves on. We want so bad for time to stand still. It is indeed an empty feeling. But, there is hope. God understands and seems always to supply someone to fill that empty feeling. And I believe that God sent you Julian to do just that. God loves you so much, just as you love God with all your heart. You were always there for Luc when he needed you most. And, you will always be an important part of Luc's life. In the same way, Luc will always be an important part of your life. Your and Luc's closeness to God brought you close to each other. Luc will always be close to you, maybe not as physically close as before. Just as God brought you into Luc's life when he lost Rob, He has brought Julian and Emi into your life along with Andres and Steve. God will not let your heart hurt so much. You mean to much to Him. After all, you are His most loved little angel. You let God's most awesome love pour through your heart to all those about you. Your love touches deep into the hearts of so many people.
God bless you Andy. Thank you for being the awesome, wonderful you!
Mi amor,
Pa
@Vic- I think you`re right. Is so good to have Julian. Hug back. @Pa-I`m just been a weeping boy. I`m fine now. Thanks pa. God bless you too.
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