I think as a worm crawling desperately forward, not backwards, trying to crawl and then back up and start walking again. I think I forgot to walk and I have to relearn.
I feel so disenchanted both because it's like I'm afraid to be alive, but I is not dead, is that I feel is a great responsibility to be alive, so the weary and disappointed I am.
I do not even want to talk more of sadness or pain, I'm tired of listening to myself. I am tired of everything. So emotionally tired I would sleep for several years.
As I will continue if not where to go?. I know I have my dad, my family, my friends and cas, understand that I have to live for, but it can not find a way. And I understand but do not know how, not even want to write in English, I'm so disappointed and discouraged, to think in English I get tired. I continue with this block is making me too heavy. I feel a great responsibility. Not. But I think being depressed is bad, I would not feel well, I was not so, I think this depression is going to kill me. I thank God for having a cas me if I cas not embrace every day I think I already had died.
I do not even know if I should post this, but it is my heart. If I write what I do not feel or what is not true, then I am a hypocrite and a liar. I'm not either. I do not know guys, but this is what I'm living every day. In truth I have to follow but can not find the path. At least I'm looking for.
Do not forget to pray for me because if I just sink.
Do not let anyone mistreat or abuse.
A hug to everyone.
I love you all.
rob
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