SO GRATEFUL.

So grateful to GOD.
HE`S all love, HE`S love it self.
I`m so grateful to be alive, weak and kinda long way to go, but alive.
I finish to read my blog and all writing luc did, omg, i`m really speechless, i have no words to describe how is w/luc, this kid is just awesome, when luc look at u, u can feel it, he expel love, he give his heart to u, the moment luc go inside a place is like everything gets brighter, is a feeling of warmth and safety that goes through my body and covers my whole being, he spoke softly, when luc talks, u just listen, when this kid look at me w/those big green eyes and smile at me is just joyfulness and peace, i enjoy he`s company every single second of my life, he never, ever, let me down, he`s been there for me all the way, no money in the whole world is enough to pay luc, luc is priceless, no wonder all the kids in this hospital just love him, every body in here loves him, he goes to every room and hug the kids, his dad have been buying toys by the dozens for luc to give away, there is a big store that luc`s dad friend owes and been giving toys for luc to give away, there are more 2000 cards and letters of good wishes, more than 600 teddy bears and toys i`ve been receiving from around the world, all not just for me, but for luc, he`s the dream friend, brother and all good any body have ever wish (i`m seating in his lap typing rit now and he`s telling me to "please, ro, stop", but i can`t, i don`t want to, i want the universe to know who u r), i want every kid out there, to learn from u how to be a friend to others, to learn what`s a friend is about and protect from others that can come close to them telling them that they`re friends and to trust them, `cuz they`re not, i`m doing it for u all kids, please, i don`t want any of u to get hurt as i am. I got my right shoulder all wet `cuz luc`s tears, he`s not even sobbing, the tears are just coming out `cuz this is how he is, the must loving care friend i ever had, the one i wish every kid in this world find and not just kids, i wish that every human being have a friend like u, i have no word to express the love i feel for u, `cuz they`re any, i love u and will love u `till my last breath in this world, i`m thankful to God for having u, u r one of the biggest blessings i got in my life, i love u `cas, I LOVE U `CAS, i want the world to know that, omg, i love u so much.
You are the one who was all suet, hugging me and telling God to please, not to take me w/Him `cuz u love me so much, that "please, i give u my life for his, take me and leave him here", you didn`t know `till now that i know this, you haven`t told no body, but even in my coma i was able to feel ur anguish and pain, and i was so close to death that i was kinda out of my own body, looking at my self in bed w/u, how? dunno, just know that happen like that, and when u say those words and i felt for what u where going trough, i just kinda didn`t want to go, dunno how to explain this, this is the first spiritual experience in my life, i just know that ur sadness was SO deep and big, that i just remember i start to squeeze your hand in an effort to comfort u `cuz i wasn`t able to take so much sadness and is when i came back from my coma. I don`t care if i`ll sound crazy or out of my mind, but is how it was. I don`t remember much after that, but i remember i was back, i just wasn`t able to tell u, i try, but everybody thought i was kinda delirious `cuz my condition and u didn`t understand my words at that moment. `Cas, we got an eternal bond, u r part of me, this is the most strong bond i have to any body in this world beside my parents, i love u w/my life `cas, w/my whole life, i`ll be honor to give my life for u, i love u my whole being, yes i do.
I have to stop, i start this at 1;40PM and is 3:15 PM. I have to stop `cuz when luc saw what i was writing he just start to cry and start kissing me and tell me "tha`s truth, yes i was so sad and i ask God to take me, yes, i love u too, more that u can ever imagine", and start to call for his parents, they came and mine as well, and we can`t talk, i was just hugging my bro and he point to the pc, that way they start reading and cry at the same time, they just hug us and was a pretty powerful, beautiful moment, those kind of moments u save in ur mind for ever. Then is when my dad spoke and told us how close i was to died, that for the first time at that moment, he thought that i wouldn`t made it. He even start to made arrangements w/the mortuary home. I know i were close. That`s why i`m so grateful to be typing wright know.
Is SO good to be alive.
My doctor start the treatment for the hepatitis B, i gain 5 pounds, so kool, i don`t see where but i believe it. Dunno when i`ll be home, hope soon, is still a long way to go, but i`m fighting.
I have no words to express my gratitude to every body for ur prayers and support, i just can say that i love u all. Thanks for ur emails, thanks for be w/luc, encouraging him to keep going.
Thanks kids, God`s listen, please, believe it.
Ask for His mercy and grace and He will show it to you.
Be safe, learn from my experience to be careful and to choose ur friends.
Tell some body if u being abuse.
A big hug for every one.
Paul, this one is for u too, i know u r w/me all the time. I will love u for ever.
Life is beautiful.
From my heart to u all.
robert