SIX MONTHS (by Lucas)

Is been six month Ro and seems to me like yesterday.
We know. We know like a month before. We talked about it and reading your private blog today about that day sadness me but makes me happy too. You said that you love me so much, that you will do whatever I think will be an option for you to live, no matter the pain, because you didn`t want me to feel guilty later thinking what if.....because he knows I know that the end was closing in quick. I just didn`t want to accept it.
I still have dreams of you, like last night, we were talking and I hug you sobbing and happy at the same time, then you start kissing me and telling me I will be fine, it was Andy waking me up.

I`ve been learning to think about the good memories and even learning to deal with the pain and depression looots better, but the pain and sadness are still there, not as strong and overwhelming than before though. I`m staring to see healing and that is keeping me going. God have been holding my hand all the way.


"I thought of you with love today but that is nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and days before that too,

I think of you in silence I often speak your name
All I have are memories and your picture in a frame

Your memory is my keepsake with which I'll never part
God has you in His keeping I have you in my heart."

I remember you today specially, with joy for the way you live your life.
You never keep hard feelings towards no body.
Your forgiveness was amazing.
Your loving care and tenderness.
Above all, your faith in God. He was the most important being in your life.

I will never forgot you Ro. You will always be in my heart.

luc