I`M SO SAD AND SO HAPPY (by Lucas)

I`m not tearing down, is a tears stream going down my cheeks.
Andy have been around the floor and find out that two of the kids in here knows about the blog and they were blown, me as well. Is been so beautiful to meet them. I`ve been around in a power chair visiting like 12 kids with really bad lungs issues.

I don`t even know how to put my thoughts in order and pasted them here. I`m so moved this days, specially the last five days. I understand, admire and love Ro more than ever. I live his pain, fears, weakness and even this have been tuff on me, is no way to compare with what Ro went through. That makes his attitude to God and others more amazing than ever.  I`m asking God to give me Ro strength and faith. Now I understand how not fun is to be all weak, scare, sick, vulnerable and helpless, laying down in a hospital bed. Is not that I didn`t know is bad, is that is different when you have to go through your self. You got a better understanding.

I told my dad to get me two laptops and a load of teddys, cards, gifts cards and to check with all the kids parents I visited if they need financial aid, I want to cover whatever this kids can`t afforded, I mean their parents, gas cards, and my dad did. I thank God 24/7 for my dad. I love you dad. The laptops are for two kids that never have had one and came with air card and one year paid subscription to internet. Is so sad to know they might not last a year each to enjoy it. Oh God I`m so sad. Why kids have to suffer and die? I don`t want any kid suffering or passing away.

My room is full of kids and even sad I`m so happy at the same time. The voice spread quickly and kids from other floors have flooded my room. The doctor came and I told him I didn`t want to any kid be stopped for visiting me, he ask me how I felt and I told him that just weak but ok, then he said "ok Lucas, but in bed, I don`t want to see you out of bed", "thank you doc" I answered him. I don`t remembered giving so many hugs and kisses in few hours in my whole life. Well I should said we, cus I was with my three little brothers. Moved me so much when some of them asked me "Luc? Can we pray? Would you pray for me right now?", oh yes I can, sure I did. I think we will heading home this evening. I want to be home, but you know what? I really don`t mind at all to spend few more days here with this kids. *deep sigh*.

Oh God, cover all this kids in here and around the world with your protection, mercy and grace. Please console them with your so awesome love. Heal them, I know you can. Take them in your wings, they will be safe there. Keep his little hearts close to Yours.

Thanks for your prayers.
A big hug and kisses for every kid out there.
Love you all.

luc