Hi, i`m luc.
I want to tell the world how it is to have a friend that have been abuse it.
I`m not as good as rob expressing my self, but i`ll try `cos i want to you to know guys.
Rob is kinda short for his age, but strong, w/an abs set like a model.
Were neighbors and become friends `bout 9 mth ago, we play basketball at school, tennis and scuba diving w/his dad. Then suddenly he gets sick and my mom told me what happen to him. When he learns i know `bout the abuse, he just change, no more calls, not straight looks, always w/his head down when talking to me, no hugs, no more spending nits together and weekends, no close contact, no nothing, i was pretty sad and piss off at him. My friend is gonne and i didn`t know what i did wrong, he just jump one day and told me that he doesn`t me going to his house no more. I ask him why?, that please to tell me what i did wrong, that i like him pretty much and want to be his friend, that i was so sorry for what happen to him, but that i thought that, that wasn`t his fault and that i didn`t care `bout that, that what i care it was `bout the unbelievable hart he has, omigod, this kid just hug me, so tight, crying so loud, and telling me that he was so sorry, that thnxs so much for my words and for be his friend, that was `cus he felt dirty, guilty,weird, that he was scare of ever body, that he don`t want to go out by himself, that he has to take 5 or 6 showers a day, to clean him self, `bout his nightmares, that he sleep at his parents bedroom, that was the rison why he became home school.
I didn`t know any of that at the moment, but when this kid opens his heart to me this way, i just don`t want to stop hugging him, that was the longest hug i`ve did to somebody in my whole life, he never stop talking, and i`m not able to say what he told me, but i`ve been there when he seat in his bed in the middle of the nit, all wet, breathing hard, his eyes wide open and crying, shouting out loud no,no,no. I just turn on the light and hug him telling him, is ok rob, is me cas, `cus he calls me cas, and he just grab me, dunno, is not a hug, is like he`s grabbing me not to fall, like his life depends on it.
I`ve been here when he holds my hand in the middle of a movie parking lot, or inside the movie theater or in a mall ( wich is kinda shameful for me, just for what others could think, but is no more `cus i don`t care), or hold me by my belt pants w/his hands all wet `cus perspiration, or when i have to call his dad to pick us up in a hurry `cus he have a panic attack, when that happen he just hug me w/out letting me go, his eyes close, his face kinda summerge in my body and shacking like a leaf, or when i helping him to dress or undress, yes is hard to see him so skinny, when he stays w/out sleep for so long `cus emotional issues, and when go to sleep is a restless sleep, just moaning, wispering, moving his arms around, talking none sense, calling his parents, and calling me, i just padding in the head and tell him close to his ears that is ok, is ok.
No body knows how much that was affecting me `cus i didn`t want no body to know. If i talk to my dad `bout it, he`ll stop me to go to rob`s house, and i decide that i won`t give my back to the situation and i`ll handle it.
God`s will, and the therapist, his parents, my parents, me, all that love together, is been working and he`s healing, he can sleep quiet, doesn`t hold my hand no more, he just stays close to me, we start enjoy going out, diving and those all good things.
Was the time when rob scare the shit out of me when he start to cry out loud in the middle of the night, but, those days are gone.
I love this kid w/my life, he`s strong, is and up and down road for him, but he`ll made it.
And as well as him, i don`t want to see kids being abuse, is scary, sad, breaks your heart, i just can imaging what`s going on inside rob`s mind, `cus if just being close to him, breaks me down, `cus i feel it, how it is inside him?
STOP HURTING US.
Kids be safe, parents take care of us better, let`s spread this.
I want the world to know how much suffering a friend of an abuse kid gets, i`ve been there, hurts a lot, was driving me crazy, rob and i made a tree house in a park crossing the street, and i was there by my self, every day, just to cry and ask God to give me strength and wisdome, `cus i didn`t know what to do and didn`t want to leave him, and He did.
STOP HURTING US
Hugs to all kids out there.
Love u all.
Ro....i have no words....just that is so awesome for me....that ur my friend,
i`m grateful to God for u, i`m so proud of u, for what u been overcoming, i dunno if was me, if i would go this far.
U will made it ro.....promise.
STOP HURTING US.
Luc
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